PICTURE SPAM!!

i dont care!! I DONT CARE!! IM SPAMMING...hahahahahahahahahah!! :D :D

some of MUST SHARE PIC :D

a fresh day

and so...

reopen my blog~ :D :D


but im not sure if it will maintain...for...
something that has happen could never erase it~

Y.Y

idk...is just...

i feel like...not talking to anyone...although i been the usual me, as soon as i reach home, it feels like the world are back to gloomy state...

idk...it seems like me and my friend (not all..but certain) are slowly drifting apart..or maybe is just me..not stating name..is just its not something like it used to..

maybe is just me...and so, before everything went back normal, is best, not to online..
better not to ruin someone's mood...for at least, hurting someone..

-emo-

argh!!

i dont know...of all things that is passing through my life, there seems like nobody to complain to...and nobody care to know...

with everything adding up...and for my ability in which i doubt it could last long, i so going to end everything...

my blog is only place i could ever turn myself in...
a place i could cry on...geniunely cry..and nobody scold me pabo...
a place i spill everything and it never act like none-of-my-bussiness...
a place...a place where it held..pretty much of my every thinking..


the reason i turn here to private..so that i could be the only soul to read this place..
the only person to know that...this girl...



is no longer the girl who listen..the girl who smile geniunely...the girl who care...


just a girl..who live in dark world...a girl who pretty much disappointed in this world...
a girl...who is going to live in her own world..and fake herself in this reality world..

as the time bomb going...
tic toc tic toc..



















till the day it explode..and this place, turn into the memorial place of hers...the memory of her life~ her once happiness..her once sadness..her journey...her colors~

TT.TT

boring~~
depressed~
down~



dying~ TT.TT

a lesson to be learn

learned something very important today...someone slap me and wake me up from a stupid dream..something that i always believe..something i always practice, it seems so wrong now...im fully awake for what i been through...

what is friend...what is foe...someone u call friend do they really care of who you are...or do they really know who you are...after naively believe that treat people like how they wanted to treat you and had been practising that for 2 decades of my life, it seems like the saying is getting far from what it meant...

i watch happy together yesterday, heard NARSHA afraid human the most..i kinda agree with it...to be treated like how u wanted to be treat...if human is a species of so simple, they werent human afterall...

actually afterall the not-so-organised talk for intro (i even failed in putting an organised intro),i realised that after for such a long time, there is ntg such as sincere friends....to talk to someone when im in sad position and to get the respond back, is nt something easy...maybe to remember everything in CNS is even easier than to get someone who listen well...

they open up when they had problem..u listen to them...give them what u think..they feel better and there they goes...MIA...when u talk on something, there is no response..after all the cold asses i been received so far, i learned to keep my own problem..to rely on someone to solve what is been miserable to you, isnt it better to keep it with urself and solve it...

when im happy for jae new jdrama, proud of yun new achievement, awaiting for min new kdrama, worried on chun absent and congrats on su achievement...it seems like there is noone to talk to...even if this superficial feelings werent able to reach to my friends, what more on the deep feeling...of superficial and deep, it is same to me...

i told you about the new group...u kick it aside as something boring..why u expect me to spazz with you the same thing again when u found out??? after my heated spazz were turn down by your cold ass, why i going to heat up my warm heart to keep it up for you..im sorry but i think im going to change..maybe next i will go "oh reall?" okay...

i know this post is going to be blank till i had something up next..and it will still left cold...even when i say im going to stop mbbs...

for all the cold ass, and after all the tears that evaporate from my cheek..i learn..i learn to change myself...change to what the norm had been....

for jungmo~

is kim jungmo from TRAX!!! :D :D
really love this group...too bad they were under spotlight...
but for jungmo, I LOVEEEEE YOUUUUUUU~~ :D

listen to their latest single~ : 가슴이 차가운 남자 (Let You Go)

tracklist :
01 가슴이 차가운 남자 (Let You Go)
02 One Night
03 송인 (Goodbye Lover)
04 아직은...나 (I Can Change)
05 치유 (Healing) (feat. Key From SHINee)
06 끝나지 않은 이야기 (Don't Leave Me)

am i qualified

am i qualified???
im freaking for my dog... am i even qualified..i wasnt suppose to be freaking out...

but i am...what am i suppose to do!!! i know epitaxis would take a few days to recover but im soo worry and i even cry~~ what sould i do...am i qualified???

i shouldnt be a doctor..i shouldnt~

T.T

my dog is sick..so worried~~ T.T

please, please let her get well....


sigh, i myself had gastric the whole day~~ ==

a dream come true

seriously..is a DREAM COME TRUE FOR ME!!! WHOOT!!!! :D i loveeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..woops, who is the director again? ahahah...anyway,

YUSUKE YAMAMOTO, SETO KOJI AND TAKAHIRO NISHIJIMA is in for a jdrama, TUMBLING!!!!! i love this!!! omg..all my favourite jdrama actor..omg..love it!!!

here is the news :

This spring, TBS will explore the world of men's
rhythmic gymnastics with a new drama series titled "Tumbling." The show will
feature a cast of popular young actors, led by Yusuke Yamamoto (22) in his first
lead role in a series.

Yamamoto plays a high school delinquent who has a
weakness for women. When an attractive transfer student (Azusa Okamoto) joins
the women's rhythmic gymnastics team, he responds by joining the men's team and
soon discovers a passion for the sport. Since last fall, Yamamoto has been
undergoing special gymnastics training for the role.

Although men's
rhythmic gymnastics originated in Japan, the sport is still dominated by women.
It is estimated that there are only about a thousand men involved in the sport
competitively.

The supporting cast of "Tumbling" includes Koji Seto,
Shohei Miura, Shunsuke Daito, Takahiro Nishijima, Satoshi Tomiura, Tomo
Yanagishita, Kento Kaku, Soran Tamoto, Rei Okamoto, Jiro Sato, Ryoko Kuninaka,
and Nene Otsuka.

TBS plans to broadcast the series on Sunday nights at
7:56pm, starting in April.

tokyograph

LOVE IT!!!

the lead, yusuke yamamoto

supporting actor :

seto koji &

takahiro nishijima

actually out of 3...i like nishijima the most...but since all of them in, i love this drama!!! :D :D should i download?? YES!! hahahahahaha...yay!!!! all the 88 baby...oh yea, another 88 baby.. SHIM CHANGMIN PARADISE MEADOW is showing on april too..LOL..or march?? omg!! all the 88 going to pawn the movie world!!

shim changmin

and oh yea, SAENG ILL CHUKA MAKNAE!!! saranghae!



~~~
other supporting cast in tumbling
1. Miura Shohei


2. Shunsuke Daito


3. Satoshi Tomiura


4.Tomo Yanagishita (same group with seto koji - D-BOYS)


5.Kento Kaku


6.Soran Tamoto


7.Rei Okamoto (see a girl at last..==)


8.Jiro Sato (uncle~!!!!!!!! ahh,they need a daddy and a teacher..haha)


9. Ryoko Kuninaka (another hot chick...my nijji, my seto..my yusuke..die!!!! == )


10. Nene Otsuka (hahahah~ the mother appear..:D)



seems like a lot of lengzai...2 hot babe..1 uncle and 1 aunty...hahahahahahah...not really a lot of lengzai but still my 3 favourite is there..so..:D

for changmin paradise meadow, the lead actress i think u guys know..
lee yeon hee

of those who are up..and those who are down

is a world of SME and YGE..we all know how SM and YG artist fight all this while..from last generation to this generation..they are well known rival~ JYPE??? no offence, get out!! not even qualified to be the #3..same goes to DSPE...:D :D serious!!! of kara & ss501 (DSP) and oneday & wondergirls (JYP) compare to TVXQ & SUPER JUNIOR & SNSD (SME) and BIGBANG & 2NE1 (YG)..well better stop with this..my main light is on SME and YGE...

okay..after a day out with my babes, come home and online to check on..well today is WEDNESDAY...what u guys expect, IS ORICON DAY!! oh yea, just before i forgot, CONGRATS TO TOHOSHINKI FOR THE 228,542 SALES ON BEST SELECTION 2010..here is the oricon list :

*1　228,542　東方神起
*2　*16,822　AAA
*3　*10,868　FUNKY MONKEY BABYS

congrats to AAA too...takahiro nishijima!! :D is is me or i sense #1 for their oricon weekly?? LOL..congrats!!! anyway a new single will be out for tohosinki...toki wo tomete and 2nd song?? CHECKMATE..

ahh, why am i keep running off from the main topic??? kay back

so i went to soompi and saw this interview..from GDRAGON (for ur knowledge, he is leader of BIGBANG)..he was talking about how JJ (TVXQ MAIN VOCALIST) approached him and then they make friends..so is yoosu..and he say how close all of them are and how he pester them to buy him food in japan..oh yea, GD is even younger than the maknae..so...how nice for GD to get tvxq sunbae buy him food!!! == *envy envy*

anyway GD is not the only member who are close to TVXQ..daesung are close to yunho and junsu, taeyang is close to junsu and others...seungri?? he is junsu biggest FANBOY!! should i even mention TOP??? the real F4 : TOP, HYUNGJOON, JAEJOONG & YOOCHUN!!!!

lol..yeah, bigbang and tvxq are indeed close to each other...:D :D

saranghae!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
&
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!! :)


1st day of CNY!!! *throw confetti*
as usual..gather around..makes lots lots of noise..and also collect angpow...ahahah..nothing really special..but then it is something worth to remember...

some of my cousin not here in malaysia..but then, thanks to the help of technology, we get to see each other...to my big bro, it been long time since i last see you..i missss uuuu!! do comeback next year...

anyway, will be back tomorrow to post my #2 of cny!! :D

imma star~~

wanna spazz on sataroooo and masaruuuu and shooo!! yes yes yes..watching Atashinchi no Danshi!! XDXD

sataroo...(BY SETO KOJI)



name : 瀬戸康史, Seto Kōji
date of birth : May 18, 1988
profession : Japanese actor and singer ( Koji was also the lead vocalist of the Band J-Rock Band TETRA-FANG)
Height:175cm
Weight:52kg
Blood Type:A

* The lively and bright multitalent is nicknamed Setomaru (瀬戸丸) and one of the youngest members from the acting group D-BOYS.
* get his work here : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Koji_Seto

masaruuuu....(by YUSUKE YAMAMOTO)

name : 山本裕典, Yamamoto Yūsuke
date of birth : January 19, 1988
profession : actor
Height: 180cm
Star sign: Capricorn
Blood type: A

* get his filmwork at : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yusuke_Yamamoto

got both of 88 baby!! yay!! adding my 88 circle...XD


ah..yea, shoo..(BY OSAMU MUKAI)


name : 向井 理, むかい おさむ
date of birth : February 7, 1982
profession : actor

* more about him : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Osamu_Mukai

~~~

tik tik tik...

aww!!! i likey taecyeon here..and JUNSU-shii, u are just fit in ur role!! likey how he act like a manager...nickhun, just as hot as ever..wooyoung is just adorable!!!

yoon eun hye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what else can i say..my favourite actress of all!!! ^_^ ^_^ saranghae!!!

well, since im starting with artist....ahahah..tohoshinki!!

so yea, appearently, all JAPANESE MAGAZINE EDITOR is blogging about TOHOSHINKI and how they are inviting all of them into the magazine..and the one who already has them, PRE-ORDER SOLD OUT!! yes, i am saying PRE-ORDER SOLD OUT!!!!!!

so who say tvxq is going to disband..even if SME is going, AVEX is not going to...oh well, SME is not going to let them off...who wants to let a duck laying golden egg left their own farm...who is that stupid..so well, mr kim young min, let me see ur resign letter SOON!!!!!!! i would say GOODBYE IN ADVANCE!! *evil laugh*

on twitter

out of boredom today..i sign up for twitter...
so..since JOLYN (in all the form i like) has taken up by ppl and i dont want to be soo vain to put TVXQ in my name...i use my blog name..so my twitter page is...*drum on*

https://twitter.com/littlegyspy

yay!!!!!!!!!
oh well...find the list of kpop celeb in my twitter...happy tweeting!! ^_^

a post of words~

ntg really..is just

i am fascinating on how people never appreciate on what they always have..and grumble and nag and angry on what they never had...is just life..human nature is to be over greedy..

human~~ i just saddened and angry over something...how could she ever could say those words...she never just realise the love given...who the hell would be such a princy on giving everything u demand..

to give you shelter..to give you food and a home where u could just realise anytime u feel sad...to give u what u need and luxury even they had to work their butt off..who is that noble people if it wasnt your own parents???? depending on the guy u say u love??? they give u a pretty much shit unless u found urself a good half...but how big possibility would that be...

for such a little lecture, u say u going to move out?? and who will be paying ur home cost??? you work??? how much can u bear to work under other people demand when u never even start suffering at home...just a remainder, u never even swept the floor once at home...remember!!

to give u car right after u passed ur P..never had u worry about ur financial..to show your hand when u need money..never ask to where u spend...never even stop you from doing what you like..is just a little thing in life he demand and yet u never care to listen...

u call yourself brilliant..you call yourself great...you call yourself clever..

all i could say YOU ARE JUST A JERK WHO NEVER APPRECIATE AND SUCH A STUPID PIG~~

a fast word

here to congrats on TVXQ for their BREAK OUT SINGLE success!!!!

in 3 days, more than 220k sold~ and the number still counting...yay!



i keep praying..dont forget, we keep the faith eternally~~ saranghae~ hamkkehyo!!

a not so fun week~

-exam period-

damn!!! i hate it!! tsk!!

-break out break out~~~~~
i keep praying the heart...baby we keep the faith eternally~





yay!!! new song from THE TRAX!!!

VAN~

saja come in to buat kacau beside posting a niceeee news...

Yeuamnhac.com is one of the most popular music websites in Viet Nam, that covers various kinds of music (VPOP,KPOP, JPOP,US/UKPOP etc.).

From November 2009, Yeuamnhac.com (YAN) held a big Online Awards for YAN\'s Members to choose the best Artist/Shows for various categories.

The members of YAN will vote for their idols to win the YOA (YAN Online Awards).

On 17th January 2010, the organizer/administrator of YAN held an Offline Event to announce and celebrate the Winners of YOA.

In the KPOP and JPOP Category, the most famous group in ASIA - DBSK/THSK/TVXQ, seemed like they have no competitors.

KPOP Category :

MOST FAVORITE TOUR/CONCERT: The 3rd Asia Tour Mirotic (DBSK)

MOST FAVORITE SONG: Mirotic (DBSK)

MOST FAVORITE VIDEO CLIP: Picture Of You (DBSK)

MOST FAVORITE ALBUM: 2NE1 - The First Mini Album

MOST FAVORITE GROUP: DBSK

MOST FAVORITE MALE ARTIST: Lee Seung Gi

MOST FAVORITE FEMALE ARTIST: BoA

BREAK THROUGH ARTIST: 2NE1

JPOP Category :

MOST FAVORITE TOUR CONCERT/SHOW: The 4th Live Tour - The Secret Code (THSK)

MOST FAVORITE ALBUM:The Secret Code (THSK)

MOST FAVORITE SONG: Stand By U (THSK)

MOST FAVORITE VIDEO CLIP: Stand By U (THSK)

MOST FAVORITE GROUP: Arashi

MOST FAVORITE MALE ARTIST: Atsushi (EXILE)

MOST FAVORITE FEMALE: Ayumi Hamasaki

BREAK THROUGH ARTIST: Utada Hikaru

POP General Category

THE BEST ARTIST: DBSK

ROCK Category

THE BEST ARTIST:Linkin Park

RnB Category

THE BEST ARTIST: Beyonce

COUNTRY Category

THE BEST ARTIST: Taylor Swiff

well, nobody beats tvxq...because they are world reowned group!!! LOL LOL~

anyway keep on getting tvxq in ellen's show~~ because they deserved it!! ^_^



missing seto koji suddenly...setooo shiiii!!!!!!!!!

grumble grumble~

not really much to talk..im in a crazy shit of all those notes...but this post has ntg to do with my usual-typical-hectic-to-death-life...

is just...im getting annoyed with the talks on 3:2 division of tvxq..and the talks on how potential tvxq is going to break up...faith is really hard to keep isnt it...sigh~ even though u cant keep it, please do not mention it in front of other fans..dont ever think of grumbling in front of me..i will just walk away without even listening...because im just frusfrated~

call me obsessed fans or denial fans, but yea, i cling on myself..on my faith and will never let if off...beside i dont ever think tvxq will break for this reason :

right..all of us know the same contract face by all 5 of them, the unpaid money since feb (do u even think sme pay homin and not to the trio?? if the trio is not receiving any money, i am super sure that will be the same for the other 2!!) and also, 5 of them DO MEET THE LAWYER FIRST!!

so why do the trio did not sign the contract but homin do?? and below is what i think happen..u have the choice to rebut urself...im open to any discussion..

first of all, if that is what they boys received since feb, that will be after mirotic done with the promotion and the boys is in japan..and u dont plan a lawsuit over a night..so im very super sure, all 5 of them knew the lawsuit will be up soon but ever realise the most happy moment in 2009 of all of them are after tokyo dome concert??? and also, they are close and dorky~ not till the separation starts??? the boys do come with plan..for this is what i think had happen:

the boys were told by the lawyer the lawsuit is going to be tough and long journey (this is not a make up, it is directly from the lawyer)...the boys come with a plan..since homin had drama on hand and it is not worth it to let it lost..afterall, sme will have to pay them for the drama...since the other 3 are free, they proceed with it...

beside, just for business point of view, the 5 knew what is their status in SME..they are the big bro..and they knew SME is the only company they can stay (im not dissing the other company)..beside SME is where they start off..their origin..they know well what SME can provide them..and how far more they can go..to let of sme, where can 5 of them land?? with bigbang in yge?? and will they even had better activities compare to bigbang?? afterall bigbang is the big bro of yge...or should they go JYPE??? not in the most common sense right?? or set up their own comapny with the limited money they have????? if so, how about their INTERNATIONAL ACTIVITIES which is directly under SME?? avex and sme taiwan??? are they going to give up just like that??? so they boys knew better than anyone SME is the right choice to stay...

fans say, why all 5 of them cant sue sme together and stick together..ever think of how easy sme can solve this prob?? it was like , OKAY IF 5 OF YOU WANTED TO SUE ME, U 5 CAN JUST LEAVE HERE AND I WILL SEE HOW 5 OF U CAN SURVIVE!!! let me explain, with 5 of them suing sme, sme can just let them off..and the prob will be like the top, where will the boys land next??? and all the project will be stop..totally no hope for TVXQ or TOHOSHINKI...with homin under sme still, it will be like, WE WANT TVXQ BACK, U SETTLE THE PROB WITH JAECHUNSU FAST!! is still under pending till the lawsuit over...is like making sme thinks, how should i do..i cant let them off...but if i didnt, im losing...but if i let them off, what can the other 2 do?? everyone knew that tvxq isnt complete with the only 2 members..beside, the lead vocal and main vocal isnt there...^_^ and yoochun is just a perfect music talent sme wouldnt like to lose...giving them 3 to fight for justice and 2 to keep on pressure in sme, sme will have to end all this before he could arrange anything for the 2....afterall like what they had always say, we represent tvxq! XD

if the boys choose to stay in sme, they will have then come with a plan to change the working environment of sme and also a plan that makes sme surrender...if 5 of them were together, it is just easy to destroy them...kicking them out of sme and having them paying the money is piece of cake for them...they knew the wicked part of sme...coming 3 and 2 is just perfect to fight...

the boys too couldnt meet up with together..if this is what u guys are blaming for..it is easy...fans caused it...why do i say it..do u guys even realise fans are stalking them everywhere??? if they just walk out from a place together, there is not only fan account, but pictures and videos...we are happy, but the boys plan are destroyed...sme will be thinking, so you guys are geng up!! let see what i will have for you....

ever realise the 3:2 separation start after the lawyer say all 5 of them meet him???? and only 3 proceed with the lawsuit???

is just...a plan..a tactics~~ plan for survival...

they need to change what is in sme before they could stay...and the boys are in winning pace..and i am sure the 3 had the support of the 2...afterall, i never doubt their relationship of the 5 for 6 years...nothing beats it for it is real...junsu wouldnt bug changmin over a lost game if their relationship wasnt strong..jaejoong wouldnt always look at yunho when he sings or dance if it wasnt true..yoochun and changmin has a unique relationship that all cassiopeia knew...jaejoong and changmin wouldnt brickers each other if they werent even close...

it is because to survive next time, they had..no choice but to cling on to what they have do...and all they hope is, fans never split themselves and fans trust on them..the reason why soulmate had their tattoo on their chest...

is like a puzzle..put it together and we will see it...^_^

not so proud~

this isnt a beautiful...

where is all the respect gone??? shameful!!!!

playing the look alike game~

me!! XD




hui ping!!


hui ting


pynic tan!!! XDXD pheww..u had..mariah carey..sexy!!


chia ming


loo wen


wen shan

of good and bad~

people say it is a must to start the new year with good news...so that it would be a good year for you...well, tvxq indeed had a great start for 2009..with a successful album in 2008 in korea, they fly to japan where THE SECRET CODE is a big success in japan..they even had their BOLERO success and also STAND BY YOU and even TOKYO DOME CONCERT..but the lawsuit happen at the end of the year didnt sound promising at all..==

it was a bad year..bad year for cassiopeia and tvxq for the lawsuit..things happen, accusation up, tricks were done..many cried...and many cling on their faith..we were teached to hold it strong..hold it tight..and never doubt it for what we seen as always was the truth..

and when 2010 approach..a better year seems to be coming undoing the curse of 2009...it wasnt seems to be better...

news from japanese media stating they officially disbanded..while sme, the trio and avex denies, the media still going on...with the division of 3:2, it has a backup for what they say...and then, it is now said that the boys contract with avex end on june...will it be anymore bad news???? maybe the whole thing ended by tomorrow??? maybe not??? maybe the boys get together..maybe not???

oh well, so is it true that good starts on the upper first year will give a promising year and a bad starts show bad omen going on till the end of the year...or it is just some old sayings...

for all happen, i hold tighter to my faith..never doubt on their relationship...never trust anything that never confirm..for i know why changmin look soo angry...look so emotionless...because i am a fans for 4 years...

사랑한단 말

yay!! my new year gift from kpop..a new digital single from I THE TRI TOP'S!!!!

they never fail to impressed me with their ballad~ it is just..awesome like it used to...and nice mv!! but more of hyung moon...i want more of yoojoon!!!! T.T but im glad i heard yoojoon..wish they had more recognition than just this...T.T


im going back to AIMST soon!!!! T.T GASTROINTESTINAL SYSTEM NEXT!! and did i say how much i hated intestine??? == and stomach?? i wonder will GIT be ever better than RESPIRTORY SYSTEM...let see which system would be the nicest...so far, my #1 is still, CARDIOVASCULAR SYSTEM...XD

i miss AIMST but i hate going back to AIMST...miserable~

new year prank~

woah!! i start my crazily 2010 with a big crazy prank from japanese media...staying up till 3am yesterday night (talking some craps with pynic aka nicky tan), i hardly wake up the next morning...barely open my eyes, i walk to the toilet and brush my teeth and then...back to my bedroom and onto my bed again..not sleeping but just..simply lying down..till my mum back with lunch..reluctantly i wake up, move my ass to the kitchen and prepared the food and had my lunch watching gong sam kai for the 3rd time (this time thanks to my sister who havent watch..so watch with her..second time is because of my mum..first time? i watch myself!!LOL)..

and then, of course im not interested in gong sam kai..not when my sister fast foward almost 80% of the drama..she go fast when those people were talking and end up not knowing what happen..the way she watch drama..is indeed a bit stupid...==

so i online, and of course go into TVXQ THREAD..seeing everyone panic-ing over a news of title "TVXQ OFFICIALLY DISBANDED" my heart really stop..i was talking to loowen and pynic (yes, nicky tan again..==) and i really..really go blank..my heart shouted NOOOOO!! my heart really stop..i ask pynic, she knew it..i told it to loowen but she was like..idk..didnt really feel what she felt..all i know is i try tp keep myself down..and keep refreshing the thread...

and then,till someone ask SME CLEARED IT WAS FALSE..so it was a fake alarm..like hankyung case..== i mean hankyung case might be true but the small side effect was fake!!!

the two party is still negotiating...and they say it is groundless...i know i know..i know cannot trust that old toad...XD but what if it is from the boys?? here is something from the boys :

"We have not even heard about this Goodbye concert." and, "Nothing is decided right now, both sides are still negotiating."
“해산 콘서트에 대해서는 들어보지도 못했다”며 “현재 결정된 것은 아무것도 없고 양측이 협상을 이어가고 있다”

so???
ahahahahhahahahahahah..no disbandment..oh, i just knew it here..

actually after sme confirm it was a fake alarm, i went out for shopping..XDXD bought a few..going to get more tomorrow..LOL!!!

and well, the conclusion to the story (that crazy thread jump a few tens page..==) : never trust the media unless it comes from the mouth of TVXQ, OFFICIAL STATEMENT OF SME & OFFICIAL STATEMENT OF AVEX~

Happy New Year ! (Yoochun)

2010年１月１日 　
January 1, 2010 (Changmin)

あけましておめでとうございます。　
Happy New Year (Junsu)

もう2010年ですね
It’s already 2010 (Jaejoong)

みんなが Happy になれるようねがっています～　~♡
I wish that everybody will be happy~♡ (Yunho)



oh yea, for those in australia, min is going to gold coast for paradise meadow..^_^ catch him there...LOL!!! (ps : pynic, dont think anything about min and yeon hee..they are just acting!!!!! bluekx!! )

and well, that is how my first day of 2010 started!! what a big prank yahoo japan..== u make a lot of people heart attack on first day of 2010...>< my new year prank set up by yahoo japan..XD

bye 2009~

stand by you in kohaku..the boys last performance in 2009~~ we will see their blasting perfomance in 2010~~


heartache looking at them~ even though the song is perfectly sung..but the sadness in the song increase thousand of times..i look into changmin, how he wish everything ends there and he could reach out to his hyung..i look in them, how they hold their tears...the harmonisation is still there..no doubt in it...

but how hurt is it to see them..to able to see each other yet couldnt say a word..not even looking..i know u guys are in hurt..just hang on..we will hang on too...this storm will over...*fade smile*


but there is one thing i suddenly notice and happy with..

is that..they are still using left hand to hold the mic..a promise all of them made..for no reason..is just make it to make the whole group look more charisma..something all of them make..and they still keep it..to sing TVXQ song on stage with 5 of them using their left hand to hold the mic..

i will be waiting for the full return of you..i promise~

anyway another 1 and half hour and this will be the end of 2009..
let the curse goes with you..and bring a good year of 2010..

goodbye 2009!!!

6 years of journey

it was 2005 when i first enter ur world...of all the craze and fever, it started just by a curious click..

i remember it was back in december 2005..out of random, or i should say out of boredom, i surfed youtube and entered something like music festival in the search engine..it show MKMF 05' in newly added column...and ur weird costume makes me wonder, who is it...and so i click on it..

u perform together with super junior and csjh..i wasnt so into to CSJH (since all they did at that time was shacking their ass..==) and for suju, it wasnt so clear..but i do notice a girly look in them (ahem..it was heechul..==) and when IYAH was shown, i was stunned..wow, who is that dancer!! and then rising sun..and when it reaches the maknae unique high vocal, i was like, what the!!! how could he reach that high..even though there is language barrier, i search up for the song..it wasnt long till i know it was RISING SUN sung by TVXQ~

at first, i couldnt deny..it was the look that drag me into the fandom...i first recognise SHIM CHANGMIN..then i took great notice of KIM JAEJOONG..those visual shock..(ps: i got back the visual shock feeling recently in one of the airport pictures)..then PARK YOOCHUN and JUNG YUNHO when i watch FIRST LOVE...(park myung soo is just!! mauahhahahahahahahah)..i always thought junsu wasnt as good looking as others, but what attracts me to him was his innocent look..his humor even back in 2005....i start looking for the banjum drama..that dolphin innocent really shine..then i watch on the reality show..is just like some addictive caffeine or nicotine..i just couldnt stop watching more of their stuff...

then i know they were from SME..at the same time, knowing SUPER JUNIOR and KANGTA..then from SNOW DREAM 06' i know CSJH and BoA..and what happen is just history..

at that time..even knowing u for a few days or maybe weeks??? i wishes u guys 2nd anniversary...and then a year passed and i wishes u guys 3rd anniversary..and that time, as well wishes u guys congrats on the big win (the legendary 2006 where u guys swept all the awards)..and it was time u guys fly over to japan...i saw how u guys work..how u force to perform in front of people who doesnt even know who u are..even though u were king back then, i see how u started off as new rockies...even learning japanese was hard, i assumed it was even harder to live in japan alone..those desperation..those loneliness...and how u guys finally reaches Budokon..and how u cried when Proud..never i know u guys were going to let off but looking on the supporter u guys hold on and continues..not till i watched the documentary...

and then there goes on the 4th anniversary with u guys rising up..and at the same time, the misses back to korea too much to bear...u promise to come back to korea on 2008...we believe on u..we continue wait and raise the red balloons..at the same time T Tour was a huge success...u were back with new history..with a new record..with 6 #1 in oricon weekly..beside, u guys got the title of BIGGEST OFFICIAL FANCLUB IN THE WORLD..recoreded in GUINESS BOOK OF RECORD..u return with MIROTIC...u was worried...too much of negativity of how fans were leaving..u was worried if the new song wil get the same positive critics...but then u guys still pawn the kpop world..with the sales of more than 500 000 copies (the record now is 524k++), u guys still stand strong..and with this u guys celebrate the 5th anniversary...those happiness was beyond any description of words...those tears of joy..never in my dream, the most charisma man, SHIM CHANGMIN would have his tears drop in front of the audience...the first time i ever see him crying so hard, was in MKMF 08'..how touched and happy he is...

and then, again, for the promise to Bigeast, u went back..and ur success continue...u guys reaches TOKYO DOME..and u guys, got the 2nd GUINESS TITLE of ARTIST WITH THE MOST PHOTOGRAPH with 5million pictures in total...im more than just being a proud fans..

and then things happen..u stand up for unjustice..u stand up against SME for the inhuman contract...u assure u guys will be back..i believe in u guys...and the support continues...fans continue to support..bigeast number continue to rise..and bigeast is now AVEX top fanclub with the most people...this 2 months or maybe more..it wasnt easy...but

from this lawsuit, fans were more united..there were a lot of collabration within the fans...international fans, korean cassiopeia, chinese cassiopeia and japanese bigeast..even thai cassiopeia were even unite than ever...members even though hardly could talk to each other,but this however could strengthen their relationship..for this period :

u teaches me how to be strong
u teaches me how to determined to keep on with what i believe
u teaches me how to keep a faith

in this 6 years u teaches me not only this...for this 6 years

u show how a song dont only remain a lyrics and beats..
how motivation could be shown by just a simple way..
how friendship is important
how hardwork and determination is important in achieving a dream
how success comes with hard work

there is no ways i could describe how u guys had change me...for this 6 years, it wasnt long..neither it is short...it wasnt long for i havent got enough of u...ur future is more than just this 6 years...it wasnt short as it comes with a lot of valuable experiences..and it wasnt short for 6 years built up a lot of things...but i wish to continue to see u guys more..let us count down the route..count to 7th, 8th, 9th and the let the count continue..it might not reach 200th..but i wish it would at least reach 20th...

全世界最好的爱 最贵的爱
等你搬进我的心里来
幸福的权利不要放弃
全世界最完美的唯一

~~
[Jaejoong]
ashibaya ni toorisugiteku
doredake no kisetsu mou sugitandarou
[Yunho]
minareta keshiki wo aruite
tooi kioku kara hitori nukedasenai mama
[Changmin]
ikiba wo ushinaisouna
sonna toki kimi to deatta

**Chorus
[Jaejoong]
kono machi de meguriatta
ima mo wasurenaiyo ano hi kara
[Junsu]
takusan no kanashimi toka kakaeta fuan
subete wo kimi no nukumori de omoi de ni kaeta
Proud of your love

[Jaejoong]
hirotta futatsu no kaigara
mou ichido kimi ni aeta youna kiseki
[Yoochun]
kimi ga soba ni itekuretara
kokoro no oku made yasashii kimochi ni nareru
[Changmin]
hageshii ame ga futtemo
tsuyoi kaze ga fuku naka demo

[Jaejoong]
kono ai wo mamori nukeru
kimi to naraba kitto koerareru
[Junsu]
sou hajimete omoetakara
kono te wo hanasanaiyou ni
zutto taisetsu ni toki wo mitsumeyou

[Jaejoong]
kono machi de meguriatta
ima mo wasurenaiyo ano hi kara
[Junsu]
ikiru koto shinjiru koto
yorokobi e to kaenagara itsumade mo futari tomo ni arukou
Proud of your love

(Yoochun) Proud of your love
(Yunho) Proud of your love
(Jaejoong) Proud of your love
(Changmin) Proud of your love
(Junsu) Proud of your love

im proud of u~~ always keep the faith~

J~

It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : jolynnnnnnn

2. A four Letter Word : jean

3. A boy's Name: jamie

4. A girl's Name: jewl

5. An occupation: juggler

6. A color: jaundice yellow

7. Something you'll wear: jean??? jewel???? LOL!!

9. A food: jelly beans~ yum yum

10. Something found in the bathroom: jazz music from a player in the toilet~ (counted??)

11. A place: japan~

12. A reason for being late: jam ler!! what to do??

13. Something you'd shout: jesus christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

14. A movie title: jurasic park

15. Something you drink: juice

16. A musical group: je bands~

17. An animal: jackrabbit..jackass counted?? LOL!!

18. A street name: janesville St.

19. A type of car: jaguar

20.A title of a song: ji gum chuh rum by TVXQ

let the horror continues~

i might have spazz a lot on music, on technology (kick me, but tell me from watch to handphone to cars..all this are my favourites!!!), or my addiction to singing and dancing (yay genie, yay gee, yay mirotic!!) or even to latest style or fashion..but i wonder how many actually knew that i like to read..horror themed book~ ^_^ i been searching for great ghost story..or horror stories..and of scary~ well, one of my favourite writer is non other than, Edgar Allan Poe!!! yeah, he might have dead 200 years ago..but then, his masterwork is just..beyond the description of any words....recently i found out Stephen King but darn, i couldnt download any of his work..sulk~ im finding for The Shining..but i couldnt find it anywhere..== and the work of this 2, it is out of print..==

let me spazz on Edgar Allan Poe.. ahahhaha..*recently reading Masque Of The Red Death*



Born January 19, 1809(1809-01-19)
Boston, Massachusetts, USA
Died October 7, 1849 (aged 40)
Baltimore, Maryland, USA
Occupation Poet, short-story writer, editor, literary critic
Genres Horror fiction, Gothic romance, crime fiction, detective fiction, comedy, satire
Literary movement Romanticism
Spouse(s) Virginia Eliza Clemm Poe

He was born as Edgar Poe in Boston, Massachusetts; he was orphaned young when his mother died shortly after his father abandoned the family. Poe was taken in by John and Frances Allan, of Richmond, Virginia, but they never formally adopted him. He attended the University of Virginia for one semester but left due to lack of money. After enlisting in the Army and later failing as an officer's cadet at West Point, Poe parted ways with the Allans. Poe's publishing career began humbly, with an anonymous collection of poems, Tamerlane and Other Poems (1827), credited only to "a Bostonian".

Poe switched his focus to prose and spent the next several years working for literary journals and periodicals, becoming known for his own style of literary criticism. His work forced him to move between several cities, including Baltimore, Philadelphia, and New York City. In Baltimore in 1835, he married Virginia Clemm, his 13-year-old cousin. In January 1845, Poe published his poem "The Raven" to instant success. His wife died of tuberculosis two years later. He began planning to produce his own journal, The Penn (later renamed The Stylus), though he died before it could be produced. On October 7, 1849, at age 40, Poe died in Baltimore; the cause of his death is unknown and has been variously attributed to alcohol, brain congestion, cholera, drugs, heart disease, rabies, suicide, tuberculosis, and other agents

for his masterpiece : please do get it from here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bibliography_of_Edgar_Allan_Poe

despite being depart from this earth 200 years ago, his work hasnt fail to impress me...although the language used is Thee or Thou instead of You or I..but the beautiful works of his, the perfectly written sentence dismiss the year difference..dismiss the language barrier...for once again, the man who live in the 18th century enter my list of respected man~ (he was 3rd to Albert Einstein and Robert Koch)..despite living without the technologies i got nowadays, they invented miracle that change the life of the generation now...^^

the the curse continue

so when JAECHUNSU filed for exclusive contract termination, we cassiopeia undergoes much pain, tense, stress and mental distress..almost going crazy..with much bomb on us, one to one...we strengthen our faith..we keep ourself together..and with all the unition and faith, we keep our faith continue to channel support to the boys....and continue to stay together..when the first provision come out, and the boys won the first part, the happiness and the sigh of relieve is just..beyond description of any words..after 2 months, although the lawsuit havent really end, but it left with later 2nd part..after this, we will know the true faith of jaechunsu..but we have the faith..that confidence the boys will be together...and everything will be back to normal..

when things seem a bit clear for smtown artist, HANGENG filed of exclusive contract termination..this time, i get to see a mix reaction from ELF..okay, let start wiht me, im not really a big fans of super junior..they are 2nd of my favourite kpop band..and well, my favourite member in SUJU was ryeowook..so i kinda a little not biased and neutral to this...i couldnt say the same to jaechunsu case...here, the reason for his termination is kinda similar to jaechunsu..termination of 13 years contract and nudified some part of unfair clause in the contract....let face it, 13 years of contract!!!! come on!!! that is way too crossing the boundaries...== and sme should know themselves, they alwasy UNDERPAY THEIR ARTIST..oh come on!!!!! bound people for 13 years..what the fuck is that~~

i praise the bravery of hangkyung for standing up against sme...join with tvxq??? consult jaechunsu?? idk..and never care to know..it was unfair afterall!!!! u know it, i know it..everyone knew how sme works!!! i would guess a lot of fangirl sad..frighten and shock over the news...shock for the disband of SUPER JUNIOR..

but never in my life i could read something like "if hangeng is doing this, i will hate him" come on!! calling urself as an ELF and yet couldnt even support him???? he is doing a right thing!! we never hate jaechunsu for filling the contract termination...why is that??? everyone is sad,,for this happen, it is best to stand together..the more i stay in super junior thread, the more fights, the more hatred (i guess, the best way to protect oneself from hurt is to hate a thing u love before it hurts u..this is totally true) and more dividing fans...sigh~

to all ELF, it is best to stick together..it is best to keep the faith together..because if this happen, more yet to come..u will never guess what sme is up next~~ their tactics, we see a lot of it~~ the most important now : stop believe in what SME say..believe when it is coming out from SUPER JUNIOR's MOUTH!!! not even any document..

~~

on brighter part, i finish watching HEAVEN POSTMAN SUB!!! XD thanks to the subber~
jaejoong is just..omg!!! freakingly hot~!!!! smexy to a point that i feel like killing him for his hotness..ouch~ it burn me...his acting..wasnt that straight..his ice look, after trained for his mysterious image since 2003- 2006...that is ntg for youngwoung jaejoong..^_^ really happy for his success in telecinema world...everyone should watch it..really good~~ yunho did a good job in heading to the ground..but the story line is just disappointing..sulk

but heaven postman is really good...nice~~!!!!!!!!!! no doubt a collab of korea and japan..erika(the writer of HP), im proud of you!!!!

another nice great news is that, JUNSU mozart sales, THE TICKET SOLD OUT AFTER A FEW HOURS..15K for 3k seats~~ the 3rd round..addition of 11 perf are all sold out in 3 hours...thanks to the power of xiah junsu, the musical world for once get a taste of dongbang power..anyway search for junsu's picutre for mozart...charismatic junsu!!! ^_^

break out~!!!

* I KEEP FAITH , DONT FORGET , BABY , WE KEEP THE FAITH , ETERNALLY *

love it!!! whoot~~ 500k sales!!! here comes TVXQ fans~ XDXD wish it could reach 500k sales..^_^ love the song..the 2nd song in the single will be XIAHTIC~ XD

romanji :

I keep praying, Don't forget it Baby,
we keep the faith eternallyI keep praying,
Don't forget it Baby, we keep the faith eternally

Mitsumeteru yumewa ima yoake mae no tooi sora
Tashikameru youni terashi dasuyo ano michinorino sono sakiyo

Hiwa nobori kurikaeshi owari no nai namida wa nai
Itsukawa sou omoerukara ikiru yo

Break Out Break Out
Amini coopera e no doa hiraku kagiwa kitto kimino
te no naka

Break Out Break Out
Tsukamitore mirai unmei nante kitto make yourself
kimi shidaiI keep praying,
Don't forget it Baby, we keep the faith eternally

Kakenukeru kono hibiga sorano mukouni nagaretemo
Waratta kimi wo omoidaseba itsudatte tokiwa modorukara

Kaketa tsukino katachi wo umeru youni hitowa deai
Kokoro hitotsu ni awasete kagayaku

Break Out Break Out
Kitto namidawa kanashimi jyanakute yume no ashiato

Break Out Break Out
Kimi dakeni shika dekinai kotoga aru
believe yourself shinjite

I keep praying, Don't forget it
Baby, we keep the faith eternally

I keep praying,
Don't forget itBaby, we keep the faith eternally

Sono negaiga kanau youni inori tsuzukerukara itsuno himo Oh..

Break Out Break Out
Kitto namidawa
kanashimi jyanakute yume no ashiato

Break Out Break Out
Kimi dakeni shika dekinai
kotoga aru believe yourself shinjite

Break Out Break Out
A sh i ta e no doa hiraku kagiwa kitto
kimino te no naka

Break Out Break Out
Tsukamitore mirai unmei
nante kitto make yourself kimi shidai

trans :

I keep praying, Don't forget it
Baby, we keep the faith eternally
I keep praying, Don't forget it
Baby, we keep the faith eternally

I'm gazing at a far dreamy sky before dawn now
It's way ahead I light up as if to see that
The sun will rise repeatedly, there are no endless tears
I can think like that someday in order to live

Break Out Break Out
The key to open the door which leads to tomorrow it must be in your hand
Break Out Break Out
You grasp the future, things as the fate is surely make yourself it's in your hands

I keep praying, Don't forget it
Baby, we keep the faith eternally

On this day we can tear through the air flowing across
When I remember your smile, that time we met before will return
as if we're filling in the waning moon shape people meet
Put their hearts together and shine

Break Out Break Out
Tears are surely not sadness, they are the footpronts of dreams
Break Out Break Out
There are things only you can do believe yourself it's in your hands

I keep praying, Don't forget it
Baby, we keep the faith eternally
I keep praying, Don't forget it
Baby, we keep the faith eternally

In order for that wish I will continue to pray any day
Oh..

Break Out Break Out
Tears are surely not sadness, they are the footpronts of dreams
Break Out Break Out
There are things only you can do believe yourself it's in your hands

Break Out Break Out
The key to open the door which leads to tomorrow it must be in your hand
Break Out Break Out
You grasp the future, things as the fate is surely make yourself it's in your hands

Romaji Lyrics:
BREAK OUT ROMAJI
[Sayuri JaeJoong + Amu JaeJoongie ]

TRANS English
[ By: Amu JaeJoongie@tvxqpowerfullgods]

charity~

video for the charity night...the dance in follow :

1. MAMA MIA
2. WALKTZ
3. LARGER THAN LIFE
4. MAD
5. THRILLER
6. HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL

thanks to YEELING FOR THE VIDEO~~ ^_^

坏人

那 一扇车门
关出 我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱 无法均分
以後 就留给你们
也许用伤害结束 爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人 也是个坏人
对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任 所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人 也是个坏人
分得够狠 你才有藉口转身
宁愿爱 一点不剩
也不忍 看恋人爱成路人


容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人 也是个坏人
对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任 所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人 也是个坏人
分得够狠 你才有藉口转身
宁愿爱 一点不剩
也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒 就等他带你完成

你是好人 也是个坏人
对我坦承 只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任 所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人 也是个坏人
分得够狠 你才有藉口转身
宁愿爱 一点不剩
也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱 一点不剩
也不忍 看恋人爱成路人

---


容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍~~~

love doesnt mean we got to have it...it is just simply mean
.
.
.
.
.

let the people u love happy~~

a simple meaning which many fail to realise~~
也不忍 看恋人爱成路人


~~~

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例 想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越没力越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你
快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记


^_^

the night of hotness

we did it!! yay
good job to all batch 14-ers!! u guys rock the stage...or should i say, we rock the charity night concert??!!!! the dance is just superb!!! good job!!! oh well, great stage..
great night~~ XD

surprisingly, i did not make any mistake that night and was following in the line..phewww!!! those feeling of nervous..the chillness on each finger...the heartbeat..but when the music rings, everything comes into the mind and there goes the 10mins of performance~

and the post-celebration is just...woah~ will get the video and pictures and will be posting it..^_^

anyway, i wanted to thanks
1. thean sim and mickey for the great cheoreographing and also their precious time for teaching us non-stop daily practice even this is study week
2. coleen, wan teng, sin woi and others who were involved in the dance..the practice is just fun and stress relieving
3. my dear roommates who practice together~ yay karen and tsyr xiang~ XD

it surely been a great experience..althought with bruises and skipping meals..^_^ but it just..fun~ thanks!!!

in the name of charity~

well, we know there is an earthquake recently in PADANG, INDONESIA right??? well, if u say NOOO, then im sorry...couldnt help your ignorance...okay, anyway,cut it short..so there is a charity night to raise fund for those people..and yeah, u got it...medical school is doing something..oh well, sinceeeee, my batch is doing a performance...and so, my friend drag me along and yeah, im in for the performance...is a DANCE REVOLUTION *hip hip hooray for THEAN SIM and MICKEY in cheoreographing*

so the dance revolution starts with MAMA MIA for the 70s (in which karen and xiang xiang is in) and then it proceed to WALTS (where 11 couple is dancing) and then it is BSB "LARGER THAN LIFE which represent the 90s (and THIS IS WHERE I AM IN) then pop dance for the millenium year and then for the closing it will be THRILLER (I AM IN - basically a lot of people in) and also HSM, "WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER" (everyone in so am i)...

it look like a dance mob to me..but well, it is just for the name of charity and fun~~

oh well, for the sake of that, i had a little bruise on my hand and leg..oh well, u had to give in in order to get it right?? so, leg muscle pain, bruises everywhere and tiredness is what i had to give in...i even had to take pain killer for the muscle pain..== how sad~ but then it's okay..well for at least we had fun..^^

1. my knee~~ the biggest patch of bruise since i have to kneel down for LARGER THAN LIFE

2. my knee of another side~

3. my hand..due to sweat, my watch slip to my wrist and knock my hand...

and hey something i saw in my room just now..notice how the hair is hanging over the air??? wow!!! wonder what makes it...ahahaha..3rd presence maybe??? LOL!!!!!!

a stressful day~

how long since i last came back??? well, not really long..LOL!!! what am i craping...ahahha..anyway, been a lot of emotional stress here and there..first of all, my damn exam is around the corner..then not soo nice day on lectures..and then, when tvxq was one of my stress relief, wasnt in that good position..sigh, i wonder if i could break down one day from overload of stress..

boring~~

i always want to let out my stress by cussing on someone..but then, anyone mind on letting me to curse on?? well, up to this point, i think SME directors make a perfect choice..LOL!! but who am i to cuss on them..i dont even know the real story..what frusfrate me more was the division of fans rather than the dirty tricks from SME..what 3 condition....and who are HOMIN to be under control from SME.. i mean, yea, u signed the contract but then, out from activities, and in japan, it is a must to avoid your 3 good friends???? and who is AVEX to get directed from those brainless directors of SME..== sigh~ this thing havent look good..SME is a company with a lot of stupid dirty tricks..and well, to some fans, AND I STRESS SOME FANS!!!!, their tactics fail...and isnt it nice to see SME, being the TOP PRODUCER IN KOREA, doing all sort of monkey act?? LOL..at times, i think i will do a better job as directors than they do..LOL!! and im just 21 years old..LOL!!!!

sigh....what on earth could...could...
could actually save me from all this hell...i hate it!!!!! come back TVXQ!! show me ur good relationship..before i broke my promises on you~~ ==

see what i see here???


SME artist dominating every section..==
except for 2009 special album..where it is an ost album....sme not involved..
but apart from that..it is all from sme..

2009 best artist - SUPER JUNIOR (SNSD comes in 2nd - the only 2 nominees from SME)
2009 best album - GEE BY SNSD (the only 1 from SME..weird, it wasnt even an album..a mini album)
2009 best song - SORRY SORRY by SUPER JUNIOR (GEE on 2nd and GENIE on 9th - the 3 from SME) 2009 best new artist - FX
2009 star - TVXQ (SUPER JUNIOR in 2nd, SHINEE in 3rd and SNSD in 4th)
2009 mania - SORRY SORRY by SUPER JUNIOR (MIROTIC in 2nd and GEE in 3rd - 3 from SME)
2009 current stream - RING DING DONG by SHINEE (LACHATA by FX come in 2nd - only 2 from SME)
2009 smart radio - SNSD (SES on 8th)

how is it?? every nominee of SME were in the top list..== power to SM TOWN LOVE!! i mean fans love..==

a confession

with this,i confess, i fall for the wrong person..god spare me from this circus act!!!

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i would move on..though i couldnt deny the fact i miss you..

even though it hurts me deep, but i think there is no other way but to walk away...

u never knew and u will never know for this secret will be brought to grave..

farewell!!!

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chukahae~

it is 1 year and 11 months since we last know each other...for this memorable day, i wish every zoopeian all the best and stay connected...best of lucks and saranghae~

ka mien

fiona chan

pynic tan

myself, Jolyn

set wern~

dongsaeng, nini!!

nemo!!

farra~~