Monday, April 16, 2012

it's okay, it's alright

i tried..i really tried to forget everything... but the more i forget and gave in till when everything bounce back, the more it hurts...it really does... but then, nobody knew how it kills me slowly~



I give you an inch and you take a mile
You make mistakes that erase when you smile
Im starting to feel like it aint alright
How can you care if I dont cross your mind
Cause I
Say I wanna talk but you just push me away
Tell me your leaving when I want you to stay
I never thought that loving you would hurt me this way
But Im the only one to blame
Cause Im always saying

Its ok, it's alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive and forget it
And then you promise me I wont regret it
But I do, it's not right
Because I turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you'll change things when you keep on crossin' the line

Something about you won't let me go
Maybe hes better being alone
I, keep saying im gonna move on
But it's so hard when your all that I know
But I, Say I wanna talk but you just push me away
Tell me your leaving when I want you to stay
Never thought that loving you would hurt me this way
But Im the only one to blame
Cause im always saying

It's ok, it's alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive and forget it
And then you promise me I wont regret it
But I do
It's not right because I turn around and let it slide
And Im crazy for thinking that someday you'll change things
When you keep on crossin' the line

Boy I wish I didnt give in so easily
Oh, I dont know what to do
Cause I keep on feeding the flame
When I should really be telling you we're through

Its ok, it's alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive and forget it
And then you promise me I wont regret it
But I do, it's not right
Because I turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you'll change things when you keep on crossin' the line











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L.I.F.E

what is LIFE?? how could one define life?? different people define life differently bt then no matter how differ we define that word, isnt what we are facing everyday are equally the same??
breating in the same air, taking up the same task and doing the same thing... we studied, we worked.. we earn and then to spend on anything that could define us as LIFE..

like others, we are facing the same risk of having arguments, getting sick, having job promotion and as well as death~ so why are we working so hard, moulding ourself to what we self-defined the world LIFE??

is this word particularly our goal of life?? is this word a guideline to what we are supposed to achieve in this life? is this word a reassurance to ourself??

i dont know how would i define this life... i always wanted a simple life but then again, to what extend?? is simple basically having a simple relaxed life with no worries?? or a simple life so simple that i live off as an ordinary people?? simple isnt it?? i always talked on simple life, simple way of living and simple mind but all this simple is actually a complexity itself.

now that i think of, what is the life i always wanted?? i wanted a cozy house, a house i called home...until one day, my mum asked me to pick a house to stay...and till then i realized, my simple life isnt that simple after all.. if i wouldnt taken up the complicated work, and live of an ordinary girl-next-door, that house that i picked wouldnt be in my dictionary at all..

and this makes me think again.. what define as my life.. what is the best definition of life?? some wants a life full of protection where they dont need to worry on stretching their money to the maximum, some say life is too short to be in pain where they enjoyed their life to the max and not worrying on future, some just work an ordinary 9-5 work and lives of an ordinary neighbour, some thinks all he could and earn as much as he could and save all the money and happily looking at the increase 0 in his bank account...

so what exactly is life ??? Buddha says to born to the world, to see the world, to get ill and to leave the world... that is a cycle of life...

but in that process, before the end of everything..what could a life be?? shakespeare says life is like a stage, we are the actors and actresses .. when the play goes off, the curtains come down, we get down from the stage.. some get off earlier..some get up on the middle of the play..

it's true.. when i look back on the old video of a deceased person just like whitney houston, it feels like she is still here... how she grew old, how she change from a person to another, her life just like the drama, played thru the screen..

the definition of life is too broad for us to specific it down... everyone has their own way of defining their life.. question is, can we interrupt and change it??
and another question... is knowing when we are leaving the world, a good thing or a bad thing???

if you were to know that u could live up to 80 years old and died peacefully, how would u make use of the 60 years of life??
if you were to know that tomorrow is the day you would leave for eternity, how would u spent the 24 hours that is left??

my own definition of living a simple life is now shaky...im in doubt if i could still dream of living a simple life... because i knew, the life i had been dreaming about, isnt so easy and isnt so simple after all... and it needs scarifies as well as efforts... simple is indeed a complexity