i wanted to write this post since yesterday..yet i doubt if i should do it..someone talk to me yesterday..content ntg much but friends and decision. i wasnt sure if i had really type something bad..obviously, i know and i know u knew it too, i wasnt standing on the line u wanted me to...im truly sorry for it..
wanna type out things i didnt write when i were talking to you..as i said, it was pointless that i pester u too much..i know u too much...u were hard and stuborn on ur decision.... u said it is ur wrong always, that line..do u know how evil-ish that line is??? to put urself in blame as if all of us blaming on u??? do u know how stunned i am..to how speechless i am???
to make it as if we are blamming on you?? to make it as if, "yes i am because u said it and not because i wanted it!!!" do you know how such a simple sentence could hurt?? i know i said something bad to make u hurt..i am sorry...i now i spit the wrong thing out..and it was even in my conscious i did it.. i said before, it u think it wasnt ur fault, then dont act as if it was urs!! friend isnt something like that!!!! *sigh*
something i wanted to say for a long time..at times, life doesnt go much with what we wanted..what we expected.. disappointment pretty much conquer more than satisfaction in our life, well, at least to me.. but in all those disappointment we had passed, it trained us to become who we are..to be stronger, to be wiser...to not too indulge in the fantasy world we always want..beside making the valuable satisfaction even more valuable... nt everything went along with what we want..nt everyone agree with the same effing idea we had in our mind... when this happen, frusfration, annoyed and anger comes in line..forgetting how much an event, a person had been importance to us..
friends isnt 2 person with same mind, same thought..but friends are someone who agree with who u are, be comfortable for who u are and accept that person.. it doesnt need to be in same thought, same idea and same era... it is just someone who u can talk to..who u can rely on.. and someone who knew what u are up to with just a flash of minute.. that is what we call true friends.. they could freely critics u and yet u know they are for your good.. friends doesnt speak only what u feel nice..they speak freely and hoping u could understand it.. and definately doesnt want the return by doing something for you...
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to that person,
do you know why your person didnt accept the reason u gave?? do you ever realise, u use it too much? i could say u use it everytime u reject one person invitation...1st, 2nd, 3rd..oay, we accept the fact you are sick.. but then EVERYTIME??? is it a bit ___?? why nt just directly say,yes, i just dont feel like going because i just dont want...instead of using the same excuse over and over again... and i dont know if u realise it but then, everytime i ask u out, u give me the reason, i am busy... out of 10 times i ask you, u reject me 9 times??? do u realise u been using the same excuses all this while?? to the extent, i know ur excuse even before u answer me?? remember the story we read when we are small, that lies that are used over and over again, lost it's trustability..
my point is..if there is something nt right..if u dont want to go, be direct... be honest instead of saying u are sick or whatever... nobody is going to angry at you..at least nt your friend..at least nt me..but dont use the same goddamn excuse again and again that makes me feel like a fool..in friendship, we dont give and count how much we had given out..if between friend and things were counted till so clear, it isnt friendship afterall... is just 2 individual trying to compromise each other..ntg could be counted..ntg could be weigh... in friendship, smile, happiness and respect is the only element ever exist..others, are just ntg.. =D
just think about it.. =) but if u had to rebut urself, do it.. i dont really mind.. =D is just, i wanted to make myself clear...why i choose to stand there.. =D
wanna type out things i didnt write when i were talking to you..as i said, it was pointless that i pester u too much..i know u too much...u were hard and stuborn on ur decision.... u said it is ur wrong always, that line..do u know how evil-ish that line is??? to put urself in blame as if all of us blaming on u??? do u know how stunned i am..to how speechless i am???
to make it as if we are blamming on you?? to make it as if, "yes i am because u said it and not because i wanted it!!!" do you know how such a simple sentence could hurt?? i know i said something bad to make u hurt..i am sorry...i now i spit the wrong thing out..and it was even in my conscious i did it.. i said before, it u think it wasnt ur fault, then dont act as if it was urs!! friend isnt something like that!!!! *sigh*
something i wanted to say for a long time..at times, life doesnt go much with what we wanted..what we expected.. disappointment pretty much conquer more than satisfaction in our life, well, at least to me.. but in all those disappointment we had passed, it trained us to become who we are..to be stronger, to be wiser...to not too indulge in the fantasy world we always want..beside making the valuable satisfaction even more valuable... nt everything went along with what we want..nt everyone agree with the same effing idea we had in our mind... when this happen, frusfration, annoyed and anger comes in line..forgetting how much an event, a person had been importance to us..
friends isnt 2 person with same mind, same thought..but friends are someone who agree with who u are, be comfortable for who u are and accept that person.. it doesnt need to be in same thought, same idea and same era... it is just someone who u can talk to..who u can rely on.. and someone who knew what u are up to with just a flash of minute.. that is what we call true friends.. they could freely critics u and yet u know they are for your good.. friends doesnt speak only what u feel nice..they speak freely and hoping u could understand it.. and definately doesnt want the return by doing something for you...
~~
to that person,
do you know why your person didnt accept the reason u gave?? do you ever realise, u use it too much? i could say u use it everytime u reject one person invitation...1st, 2nd, 3rd..oay, we accept the fact you are sick.. but then EVERYTIME??? is it a bit ___?? why nt just directly say,yes, i just dont feel like going because i just dont want...instead of using the same excuse over and over again... and i dont know if u realise it but then, everytime i ask u out, u give me the reason, i am busy... out of 10 times i ask you, u reject me 9 times??? do u realise u been using the same excuses all this while?? to the extent, i know ur excuse even before u answer me?? remember the story we read when we are small, that lies that are used over and over again, lost it's trustability..
my point is..if there is something nt right..if u dont want to go, be direct... be honest instead of saying u are sick or whatever... nobody is going to angry at you..at least nt your friend..at least nt me..but dont use the same goddamn excuse again and again that makes me feel like a fool..in friendship, we dont give and count how much we had given out..if between friend and things were counted till so clear, it isnt friendship afterall... is just 2 individual trying to compromise each other..ntg could be counted..ntg could be weigh... in friendship, smile, happiness and respect is the only element ever exist..others, are just ntg.. =D
just think about it.. =) but if u had to rebut urself, do it.. i dont really mind.. =D is just, i wanted to make myself clear...why i choose to stand there.. =D
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