나를 잊었나요??? 나를 기억 나요???

I keep hoping and hoping
In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
Alone once again I cry for you
In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
Alone once again I cry for you
Alone once again I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you


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how are you? what are you doing? are you tired?
this is the few questions i wanted to tell you all this while...from the very first day i knew you.....i ask this question everyday..the moment i saw ur face..the smile that i never got enough...

least that i realised, i was spoilt by you...to know that i could see you the moment i switch this on...to know that, everything will be well-prepared and to get the updates of your whereabout, your activities simply by a click...never do i realised, this bring about what u had give in...just to ease my hunger of you

foolishly, i assume that u had your meal on time..foolishly i thought the moment i close my eyes, u close yours as well..to be happy by the fact that i share the moonlight with you, to stupidly assume, u had whole day to rest for that just 1 moment of appearance....to stupidly think...it is a MUST for an updates for you...

im sorry~~

never least do i realise i bring so much burden for you and yet you could smile...
never least do i realise how selfish i am for the past few years..to say that i love you more than anything..to say...im the person who understand you...yet..nothing i do that could ease you..not even to ease your tiredness of life...

im sorry~~

for the stupidity i had in me...to assume that you lead a great life..to have so much love from everyone..to assume that you guys are in healthy state for there is no news bout you being sent to hospital...to actually thought that u really willing to do anything....never least do i realised, how shit your life had been...to be in so stupid for the past few years..

im sorry~~

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it is never easy..for you and for me...
it is never easy to cry alone...i gave up on you, i admit that...

being selfish...i know...
being protective, some said...

i know...it is because i couldnt hold on to my own faith..thousand reasons i gave to myself..

after i left...

subconsciously, i watch the performance of others and said, TVXQ did better job than you

subconsciously that when i watch super junior goofing with shinee, i silently whisper IF TVXQ were here, it would be 10x funnier

subconsciously that when i saw red, i smile and the thought of cassiopeia appear in my mind

subconsciously that when my friend point to the sky to show me the stars, i told her bout cassiopeia, the proud fanclub of TVXQ

subconsciously that when i watch a group of 5, i couldnt bear and tears drop..to know the fact i miss you 5 together..

subconsciously, i still roaming in TVXQ OFFICIAL THREAD in soompi even though i hate you..

subconsciously i squeel about you..to spazz on you...to look at your old performance in youtube..to google your picture in google...to cry watching the fanvideo of you...to laugh when watch the old variety show...to smile like an idiot when listen to your voice..to continue play your song on my itunes..

still i gave a thousand reasons to not be ...never realised i did so much thing subconsciously...never did i know...

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a word from you.. "LET'S WAIT TOGETHER"..

those thousand reasons seems to fade immediately...because, i immediately..

come back to you..

after this stupid-waste-of-time-round..i come back to you..this time, with more strength...
this time, when i come back..with more force..with tighter grip...i come back to you...to shamefully,wishing that u wouldnt angry on me...

to shamefully..wishing u could accept me back...will you???

im sorry that i leave...to give a thousand reason...to leave and realised...

i did something stupid again...im sorry~

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because i love you...

im waiting for you~~

even...there is a need to CRY for you.. alone...

勇氣~

我相信我们有。。应为有你在。。
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終於作了這個決定　別人怎麼說我不理...只要你也一樣的肯定
Finally made the decision, I won't listen to what other people say..As long as you are also just as certain

the day you make the decision, many were taken aback, many fans were in alarmed..people around me start to had discussion..rumors happen..doubt of members relationship started...blame were thrown out...words said, some were let down, some were supportive, some were angry...biased happen, fans got divided...

u were as calm as usual..with a smile strike on your face, u assure that u will comeback...u assure me not to believe to the assumption, accusation that had been thrown here and there...because of one word from each and every of you, i am assured..別人怎麼說我不理..我相信。。


我願意天涯海角都隨你去 I'm willing to follow you to the ends of the earth
我知道一切不容易 I know it all won't be easy
我的心一直溫習說服自己 My heart is always brushing up on convincing itself
最怕你忽然說要放棄 I'm most afraid that you'll suddenly say you want to give up

never will i give up..never will i believe in those assumption, the accusation, the rumors, the endless backstab that had been thrown...even it is hard to grip my own faith for all this happen too much..too much for me to handle in which at times, i got really tired...tired of defending that you guys will be back...too much to realise my faith is real or just an empty promise from you..it is never easy...when thing doesnt look good on me...when faith start to fade away, i subconsciously found myself roaming around youtube, watching the old performace, the old drama, the old variety show..idiotly smilling and laughing to myself when i watch u...i know it is hard for u too..to see the overwhelm respond, to be around the warm embrace of the fans' faith...and yet, nothing could be said..nothing could be done to assure the fans, u guys are always together...

even it is tough now...even it is hard now...too many words i wanted to tell you..but out of all, i wanted to tell you, 不要放棄。。because we are always here..never will we leave..never will we go..we will sit in our seat, waiting for you..the day you comeback, we will stand up and had the loudest cheers for you...because we are CASSIOPEIA,我们会。。

愛真的需要勇氣　來面對流言蜚語 Love really needs courage to face gossip and rumors
只要你一個眼神肯定　我的愛就有意義 As long as certainty is expressed in your eyes, my love has meaning
我們都需要勇氣　去相信會在一起 We all need courage to believe we'll be together

we have all the bravery, the courage to keep loving...we fell down, we stand up, we continue to push ur back to walk forward...it is hard for all of us..we hold each others hand and we continue to walk on the road full of holes...one of us fell, we pull them up..like how u use to pull me up, i will pull those who fell...save them from the dark scary hole..because we are a family..

because of the assurance from your eyes, the dark hole is now full of blinking stars..the darkest night full of stars..we even see the falling star..i wish upon the star...wish not that you could comeback quick...but wish that all of us, me, u or them...will have the courage to continue..with the scars, the wounds...even with blood draining out, we walk our way with you...even if iodine becomes our daily need...我们的勇气不只是说而已。。我真的很爱你。。

人潮擁擠我能感覺你　放在我手心裡 你的真心

In a crowded stream of people I can feel you Putting your sincerity into my hands

although i couldnt touch the palm of your hand..the magnetic field between your belief and my faith were connected..exchange of glance even it last for a milisecond, it is far more enough than a thousand words..a smile from you, and there, i know...even with the noise from the surrounding..even with people screaming around me, that very milisecond, let me know, u had the courage..and i know, you are telling me to grip that courage of mine tight....that very milisecond shared by you and me, becomes the moment of both of us...

6 years going 7...it is not the years of you standing on the stage singing..it is divided to many many miliseconds...the second of moment shared by you and all of us...the cumulative of all...that is the meaning of the 6 years..6 years of our moment...moment that i wanted to name as 东方神起 and CASSIOPEIA。。

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i got this feel when suddenly my mum listen to yong qi...it suddenly strike me on how it could be used for what happen in the fandom...

i know how hard it is to keep a faith when things didnt look smooth and good...i know how hard it is to keep a faith when it looks like it never going to end...i know because i am keeping the same damn faith as urs.....i pick to close my ears and open it only when the boys are talking...what representative..what unknow source, what unknown friends...what is it?? i never learn to know what is it all about because it never exist...the thing that exist : it is TVXQ and CASSIOPEIA~~

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也許會 笑著哭 但那人是你所以 不怕苦!!!! :D

Tomorrow will surely come

Listen to Asu Wa Kuru Kara while reading this story.. :) Thank you!
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8J0CR_-I-xk ]

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[Yoochun’s POV]

I sighed as I look up at the sky. Snow is falling and I can't even enjoy it.

I stretched out my hand, catch a falling snowflake and watched it as it melts. It disappears like nothing happened. It's like our situation right now...

It's so fragile. We can't grasp it. It just peacefully drifts around us.

But I am still lucky to have met the four of them. It's like a miracle, in this world.. we were able to meet by chance like that. If only I could tell them..

I miss them so much..

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[Jaejoong’s POV]

"I just couldn't say smoothly what I want to tell them." I looked down and tried holding back my tears.

Hyunjoong touched my shoulder before hugging me. "You should be brave enough to say it to them. You love them so much, right?"

I tried finding a way to talk to them but when I have the chance.. I can't say it. It's like what I want to say runs away from my mind and I can't even chase after it.

I just nodded as my tears finally fell from my eyes.

I miss them so much...

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[Yunho’s POV]

I stopped walking and sudden tears instantly fell as I looked at the sunset. Our memories flashed back into my mind as I stared at the sunset. I can still remember Junsu composing a song while watching the sunset.

I wiped away my tears as I continued walking. I stopped in my tracks when I saw a piece of paper on the ground. I picked it up and turn it around. I saw us.. The five of us, smiling blissfully as we hold each other’s body like we don’t ever want to let go. My tears fell again and it won’t stop now. It fell continuously when I saw the words on top of it.





“Always keep the faith.” A quote from Yoochun. He made this for us and for the fans. And I don’t even know that we will use it now.

I miss them so much…

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[Changmin in Korea]

“You’re going to Jeju island?” Yunho asked Changmin on the phone as Changmin fixes his things.

“Yes, I want to relax and forget about everything for now. You wanna come?” Changmin asked his hyung on the other line.

“I don’t know if I can come with you. I’ll try to go to Jeju. You can go there first.” Yunho told Changmin.

“Okay! Hyung, I need to go! I’ll wait for you there! Bye!” Changmin hung up the phone. He exited his house, immediately went to his car and drove off.

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“How will I enjoy my stay here if I want to be with you guys?” Changmin uttered as he stared at their picture on his phone. He looked at the ocean as their memories started flashing back into his mind.

The time when they were splashing water to each other.. The time when they were just sitting on the sand and watching the sun as it goes down. And the time when they filmed their Picture of You music video at Saipan.

In his opinion. those were the best times of his life. The time where all of them are just happy to be with each other.

“I miss them so much…” He uttered as he sighed.

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[Junsu’s POV]

I’m back from Japan. I really missed Korea so much. My hometown.. Our hometown.

I decided to go to Jeju island and just watch the sunset. I drove off to Jeju island and just stayed there for awhile.

“Why do we need to experience something like this?” I suddenly uttered. I sighed and looked down. I wish they’re here with me.

I tried forgetting them for just a moment but I can’t. We really have so many memories.

I got my phone and dialed Yoochun’s number. If I call him and ask him to come here to accompany me, will he come?

“Hello?” Yoochun answered his phone.

“Chunnie-ah, can you go here in Jeju? I need someone right now.” I told him.

“Arasso!” He hanged up the phone.

I looked around while I wait for Yoochun. I then roam around and reminisce our memories.

I wasn’t looking where I was going. I suddenly bumped into someone. I looked at that guy who was taller than me. I was about to shout at him when I looked at his face.

“Changmin.” I uttered shockingly.

“Hyu.. Hyung.” was all he could say. He immediately hugged me and I hugged back.

“I really missed you hyung.” He hugged me tighter. I felt hot tears fall on my shoulder. Changmin, the maknae, he’s crying. I hugged him tighter too as we both cried.

“Changmin.” We suddenly heard a husky voice. We both pulled away and looked at that guy.

“Yoochun hyung!!!” Changmin ran up to Yoochun and hugged him. Yoochun hugged back as he cried his heart out.

“I missed you Minnie-ah!” He uttered as his voice cracked.

“Yunho hyung.” I uttered. Yoochun released Changmin and looked back to see Yunho hyung.

Yunho hyung stopped from his tracks and just stared at me and Yoochun.

He couldn’t control himself, he immediately ran up to us and hug us both. Changmin just watched us as he smiles.

“where’s Jaejoong?” He asked.

“I’m here.” we heard someone’s voice. We all looked at where the voice came from. There he was, Jaejoong hyung standing in front of us.

“Hyung!” Changmin ran to Jaejoong and hugged him. Yunho did the same.


“I called Jaejoong hyung to go here with me.” Yoochun told me as I smiled at him.

Yoochun’s tears were falling as he watches the scene in front of him. He’s so happy that we are together again.

I touched his shoulders before hugging him. Soon, Changmin joined the hug. Jaejoong hyung hugged us too and last was Yunho hyung.

I know we are all happy that we are together again. Our eyes which were filled with sadness before, are now filled with joy. We all pulled away from the hug and wiped each other’s tears. We all laughed and smiled at each other.

“We kept the faith always. See? This day really came.” Yoochun told us as he smiles at us.

“Baby, we keep the faith eternally~” Jaejoong imitated Yoochun’s part in Break Out. We laughed in unison.

“I really missed this.” Changmin suddenly uttered.

“We missed it too, Changmin.. We really missed it.” Jaejoong softly uttered as we all stared at each other again. We hugged each other again. I know we are all imagining how great this day is.

[End of Junsu’s POV]
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Tomorrow will surely come. No matter how dark the night might be, it will surely come.

When it rains, be TVXQ’s umbrella. When the wind blows, be TVXQ’s wall.

This story may come true someday.. Just be the Cassiopeia that we need to be..

Always keep the faith!



CREDIT : RONA PARK @ SYC

rona, i love youuuu!! this is beautiful..u make me cry!!!!!!!!
the warm tears..running down...the tears which will again run down the same path when the 5 return...because like u say






























BECAUSE TOMORROW WILL COME!!!!
it surely WILL!!!!!



always keep the FAITH!!

yoochunnie blog~

CHUNNIE CYWORLD 2ND UPDATE~

That is also happiness…
All of these, how do I say it clearly…
(Only) Faith

Eventually, there will be fear…
If it can be expressed, and there will be happiness because it can be expressed (This route won't be taken)
To me, this route…
Also means correcting one’s life…
No matter what reason it is, this was not an easy choice to make…

Hi everyone, we are… ( )
This was… ( )
Thank you, everyone

I miss it more than anyone else


T/N: He should mean:
Hi everyone, we are Dong Bang Shin Ki
This was Dong Bang Shin Ki
Thank you, everyone


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And this song is on Yoochun's Cyworld:

One Wish
Vocals: mink
Lyrics: Safari Natsukawa
Composition: Hitoshi Harukawa


Credits: ryokochanth @ YouTube

あの日、ここで 最後に手を 振っていた場所
Anohi, kokode saigoni tewo futteita basho
That day, I was waving my hand just here

あなたに 会えなくなるなんて‥まるで 知らずに
Anatani aenaku narunante .. Marude shirazuni
I never thought…I will never be able to see you again…

広い空を 彩る 光のメッセージ
Hiroi sorawo irodoru hikarino messeage
The photic message that colors the spacious sky

本当は 二人 笑いながら　歩くはずの この道
Hontouha futari warainagara　 Aruku hazuno kono michi
If nothing changed, we were to walk the road together, laughing

特別な予感に 導かれた この恋だから
Tokubetsuna yokanni michibikareta kono koi dakara
Our love is special, led by a special omen

すれ違うたびに 無数のスパイラルを　みんな 越えてきたのに‥wo
Surechigau tabini musuuno spiral wo　 Minna koete kitanoni .. wo
Everytime we thought differently, we had crossed over the countless spirals

運命から はなれてゆく
Unmeikara hanareteyuku
We are walking away from our destiny

その時が 来ても
Sono tokiga kitemo
Even when the time comes

たった 一つの出会いから 生まれた 想いを‥忘れないで さよならの後も 愛は 残ること
Tatta hitotsuno deaikara umareta omoiwo .. Wasurenaide sayonarano atomo aiha nokoru koto
Please do not forget the love born from the only one encounter… love remains after saying "good bye"

せつない 熱の街に
Setsunai netsuno machini
In the wistful warm city

「始まり」のあの曲が 聴こえる
"Hajimari" no ano kyokuga kikoeru
I can hear the song "The beginning"

遠い夏の光は 今も 眩しいけど
Tooi natsuno hikariha imamo mabushii kedo
The far away summer shine is still too bright for me

本当は、誰も 永遠など ないと知って いるのに
Hontouha, daremo eiennado　 Naito mini cooperte irunoni
Every one knows at heart…　that there is no "forever"

初めての涙を 思い出せる この恋 だから
Hajimeteno namidawo omoidaseru kono koi dakara
This love reminds me of my first tears

どこまでも続く 予感に 甘えていた
Dokomademo tsuduku yokanni amaeteita
I was depending too much on the hunch that the road will continue for miles

時は 流れてくのに‥wo
Tokiha nagaretekunoni .. wo
The years are passing by…

重ねてゆく 光と影
Kasaneteyuku hikarito kage
The lights and shadows appear and disappear

この街で 一人 たった 一つの願いなら 叶うと 信じて
Kono machide hitori　tatta hitotsuno negainara kanauto shinjite
I will stay here, believing that my only one wish will be granted

忘れないで 悲しみの中で 愛は 見えること
Wasurenaide kanashimino nakade aiha mierukoto
Please do not forget that you can see true love in the midst of your grief

誰かを また愛して
Darekawo mata aimini coopere
I will love somebody again

寂しさを 優しさに 変えてく
Samishisawo yasashisani kaeteku
Changing my loneliness to kindness

"出会い" という 光と影
"Deai" toyu hikarito kage
The light and shadow of "Encounter"

この街で 一人 たった 一つの願いなら 叶うと 信じて
Kono machide hitori　tatta hitotsuno negainara kanauto shinjite
I will stay here, believing that my only one wish will be granted

忘れないで さよならの後も 愛は 残ること
Wasurenaide sayonarano atomo aiha nokoru koto
Please do not forget that you can see true love in the midst of your grief

せつない 熱の街に
Setsunai natsuno machi ni
In the wistful warm city

「始まり」のあの曲が 聴こえる
"Hajimari" no ano kyokuga kikoeru
I can hear the song "The beginning"


Source: Yoochun's Cyworld, baidutvxq, Utamap.com and ryokochanth @ YouTube
Translation: kimuchi3005 and smiley @ OneTVXQ.com
Credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }
Feel free to repost, but please leave the full credits intact. Thanks!

oppa...i miss that too~~
will be waiting for you guys to come back... and i know the day wont be long...because
the night is ending..the sun starts to rise again...and it wont be too long till i heard

1,2,3
anyoung haseyo, dongbangshinki imnida..

anyoung haseyo, dongbangshinki xiah junsu imnida
dongbangshinki micky yoochun imnida
dongbangshinki youngwoon jaejoong immmmmmniiidaaaa~
anyoung, dongbangshinki maknae choikang changmin imnida
anyounghaseyo, dongbangshinki leader uknow yunho imnida..pangapseumnida~!!

it wont be long...till i watch u guys singing and dancing with a big wide smile in front of red balloons...it wont be long...

*watching youtube...following the flow of the song*

it wont be long..till cassiopeia will be preparing the cheers..the chant and all the project to support the back of the king...


and last but not least..
it wont be long till i see you guys..all 5 of u guys....bagging every single award out there...creating more and more miracles....and even more records...

i know all this without even the care of wondering,thinking,analysing & doubting..because











i trust you~

till then..go on fighting for what you believe... :D all of us, either the member or the fans, understand that and will be waiting for you to comeback...we will be chanting the name of TVXQ even you guys werent there on the stage...TVXQ will never fade from us...

미인아 (Bonamana)

welcome back SUPER JUNIOR!!!
i love you~~ :D :D

i love this song...no critics allowed....out from my blog puhlease if u want..:D :D

nu abo~~~

this is how we do it pure love f(x)!!! :D :D
whhoooott!!!!

ireoke man man hani~ :D

U-KISS, (Korean: 유키스) an acronym for Ubiquitous Korean International Idol Super Star, is a 7-member South Korean boy band under NH Media.

MEMBERS :

Alexander (알렉산더)
Full Name: Alexander Lee Eusebio
Date of birth: July 29, 1988 (1988-07-29)
Alexander speaks 7 different languages at varying degrees, which he has showcased on many occasions: Spanish, Portuguese, Cantonese, Korean, English, Mandarin, some Japanese and some Filipino. He was born in Hong Kong and was raised in Macau. He also attended High School in the United States. He is half Korean, quarter Portugese and quarter Chinese from his Portuguese Chinese father and his Korean mother. Is an MC at the segment All About You on the show Pops Is Seoul in the on Arirang TV, along with Eli and Kevin.

Soo Hyun (수현)
Full Name: Shin Soo Hyun (신수현)
Date of birth: March 11, 1989 (1989-03-11) (age 21)
Soo Hyun was formerly a trainee of Good Entertainment and JYP Entertainment.

Ki Bum (기범)
Full Name: Kim Ki Bum (김기범)
Date of birth: December 29, 1990 (1990-12-29) (age 19)
He is the younger brother of SS501's Kim Hyung Joon, and a former member of Xing. He can speak Japanese fluently. He also went to study abroad in Australia. He composes music, plays the piano and is into acting. He was one of the original members of Xing.

Kiseop (기섭)
Full Name: Lee Ki Seop (이기섭)
Date of birth: January 17, 1991 (1991-01-17) (age 19)
He is the rookie member of U-KISS Lee Ki Sub joined the group in 2009. He is a former ulzzang, and has appeared on the second season of Uljjang Shidae.

Eli (일라이)
Korean Name: Kim Kyoung Jae (김경재)
Date of birth: March 13, 1991 (1991-03-13) (age 19)
Eli was born in Los Angeles, and moved to Washington DC at a young age. He also moved to Beijing at the age of 15 to study for 3 years, hence his fluency in both Mandarin & English. Is an MC at the segment All About You on the show Pops Is Seoul in the on Arirang TV, along with Alexander and Kevin.

Kevin (케빈)
Korean Name: Woo Sung Hyun (우성현)
Date of birth: November 25, 1991 (1991-11-25) (age 18)
Lived in San Francisco, Concord, California and is fluent in English. Along with Kibum, he is also a former member of Xing. Is an MC at the segment All About You on the show Pops Is Seoul in the on Arirang TV, along with Eli and Alexander.

Dong Ho (동호)
Full name: Shin Dong Ho (신동호)
Date of birth: June 29, 1994 (1994-06-29) (age 15)
Spent most of his childhood in China, and is fluent in Mandarin. Also korea's "nation's little brother".

ps : dongho is in raising idol together with mblaq thunder and also shinee key~ :D :D catch him LEARNING ENGLISH!! :D