i said i am coming back for a post on the current posting i am posted to which is psychiatric... =) i think most us knew what it means by psychiatric.. all this while, well at least me, had been having a distance or a gap towards people i label as insane~
wandering around, living in the world created by their own and to continue living in delusional state...lost of human primary function and lost of touch with the reality world..i had seen them and believe me, instead of i thought i would laugh at them for what they did, i actually found myself pity them...of course i am scared of them, there is a NO way i would stand alone in the ward or to let myself alone with those people..call me anything u like but then, u would never knew what they could do next...and top of it, there is , well i admit, there is a invisible wall separating me and them~ i am sorry for making myself a gap with people i called patient, but then, well, i am just basically...SCARED~ =)
i was in the car with my mum and we pass by the hospital well known of keeping psychiatric patient...my mum was saying, the god loves them so much that HE free them from the worries of the world and live in eternal happy...
my question is...is it the mercy from HIM or harshness from HIM as a result of karma??
i seen most of the patient....they indeed live in their own world, living in their-self-imaginary world... u can say they are living in eternal happiness, to forgot about the trouble human encounter all day long, the worrisome life and troublesome people and sadness of an events...
if i could choose to live in the world of insanity or in the world of sane, one with eternal happiness or the other with all taste of life u could ever imagine (to go way down low and to climb all the way up).....
i would choose to live in the world of sane...
life maybe full of ups and downs, and to certain people, it might have more down than up, so much of down that they probably forgot what it be like to be up...but doesnt this makes what we call LIFE?? the reason we had been going thru each day is to built this beautiful memories even with the down because without sadness, what are happiness right??? anyway, i told my mum, yes, it's nice that we dont have memory of the sadness and not going thru the torture of life, but then if one to be turn insane, they themselves forgot the happy moment of their life..basically their memories on themselves reduce to Z-E-R-O!!! i rather keep all the sadness in my memories and at one point of my life, i maybe passing by the place and recollects what had happen...
passing by the tree and said to probably my grandchild "ur granny fall down and hurt her butt before here"
passing by the school and said "aww, miss lim scolded me for not passing up my homework"
u know, it would be sad thing during that time but when collecting it after 10 years, it becomes something that u can really smile at and just by recalling, it makes u happy...believe me, try to recall something in your childhood to your friend and of course a bad experience to you at that time of event... =D
it would be sucks that time but gradually as time passes, it becomes something beautiful in your mind... =) mum may not notice it but everytime she recalls her hard teenage years, she actually say it with a smile...i know because i notice the graceful smile when she talks about it~ =)
the reason why people say TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS....
it's so true~ =D
beside this, the person to suffer with people like this, it would be none other than the family members... =(
some even dump their own family member in the ward, some were left alone....how it feels like when your family abandon you~ i dont know how it feels like and i never will...it's way to scary even just by imagining it~ i wonder if they even knew their own feeling???
is it really that the god had mercy on them??? or it's just merely a punishment ???
what do you think??? would u rather to gain eternal bliss or to continue living with the devils?
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