still air before eruption

ever heard that before an disaster, there is always a still night before??? could still air a sign before some bad eruption begin???

anyway, nt writing about japanese disaster...i wrote one about it..anyway, peeps, help them in anyway u can~ there is no reason why one should poke jokes on them..imagine yourselves in their shoe... there is absolutely no reason why we should laugh when one is crying.. unless u are those brainless idiots-thinking-you-are-so-clever-because-u-could-think-out-of-the-box-by-imagine-ultraman or thinking u are part of those DEVELOPING COUNTRY trying to teach those DEVELOPED country on how to prevent natural disaster by going green and feel proud by the fact u could thought of why earthquake happen in japan n not ur own country~ =) *total sarcasm..because i know sarcasm dont work online* oh well, my country leaders are really thinking out of the box..thinking stuff that can makes people go stunned, then blue then laugh~ and end up, we are gag country for the whole world.. we live up to what our motto, MALAYSIA BOLEH~ =)

anyway, i am actually going to write about human explosion.. and that human is none other than myself.. =) surprised that i actually wrote bout myself?? hahahah~ yup!!! i almost explode yesterday.. so damn angry that i might have cussed if i open my mouth that very minute~ =.= and recently, because of that, my sarcasm have return! T.T

okay back...

so there is this miss A who had been pulling a long face and acting like she is in some chronic depression for the past 1 month...okay, if she had been in bad mood and wants all her privacy, i dont blame her..im nt mad at her... and i know i being one of the friend, i had to ask what happen..okay, i admit it was my fault for not asking her what happen, bt i had ABSOLUTE REASONS for why i didnt do it..

first of all, i am not a person who will walk over to a person looking all gloomy and acting as if the whole world is going to collapse any moment... i know it is a right thing to do, bt being a carefree person, i probably said something hurtful..so i always choose to keep myself quiet and let the person in her/his own private space...i am very sure one can recover from the depression or mood swing..it is self-resolving illness anyway~

2nd, it is nt just one day or 2... and dang,despite the statement above, i actually did ask her what happen... bt since what i got is "im okay.." "no problem" and yet the situation continues EVERYDAY for almost a week, i finally decided that i should just leave her alone instead.. because asking it will lead to same answer~

and 3rd reason, the MOST IMPORTANT REASON...the fact that she actually pull long face in front of us ONLY drives me mad... =.= giving us sulky face all day for the past 1 month and gives others a wide smile sparks my anger... for our neighbour (who is also our classmate..and one of them is her crush??), she has the warmest welcome, and sweetest smile ever... and yet to us, her own housemate, she gave us the dirtiest look and the sulkiest face ever...

and lastly, we did not did anything hurtful!! =.= first, none of us hurt her (except she is serious on the jokes make by the other 2..=.= or she believes that i actually badmouth her when i clearly state i dont)..second, we did not isolate her in anything..in fact, we always invite her for dinner bt she reject saying she is saving money (okay, i shouldnt mad at her, BUT!! when others ask her for dinner, she goes without hesitation..so??)..

okay,enuf with the reason... so yeah, after this been going for almost 1 month, i keep still bout it.. keep my anger inside, giving a cool appearance... try to cool myself down....what i angry is the fact that, she acts like all of us did something bad on her and she is victim of bully... when we did absolutely nothing.. =(

i try to cool myself down, afterall, we are housemates... any argument will lead to awkwardness in the house... and since living together, i wish the awkwardness could reduce to 0.. everyone feels happy and free in the house...with this, i suppress my own anger...trying to kick of the anger by surfing youtube... suppressed it down..till last week,wait,supposed to be this week...yeah, this week...

after "abused" by her sulky face for the past 1 month, i finally give up controlling my own anger...still, i stop myself from volcano eruption.. and finally, one day, i just cant take it~ =...= i finally burst..nt really burst..i didnt even say a word..i didnt even cuss!!! =3= i just finally pull a long sulky face..nt long sulky face bt a face clearly written "I AM SO PISSED!!" and i think she realised it~

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what i wanted to say is that...everyone had their own limit.. stop giving us you-all-owe-me-$$$$$ face each day....or acting like you-guys-just-isolate-me-and-i-am-sad-by-it..when clearly nobody did it...it is irritating and annoying you know.. *sigh*

i actually suppressed myself real hard...if i had burst, it will be be more than the 8.8 earthquake faced by japan... if i were to burst it will be as big as the eruption from mount fuji... with all the flowing larvae.. i would have spit something like "just move out!! just move out, god-damn-it!!!" if she were to cross that line, and i erupt, it would be a nightmare...and i wonder what will be the atmosphere if that ever happen~ =.=