Friday, December 30, 2011

tangled

the year is ending soon~ we will be greeting the whole new year in another 2 days?? no..another day~ 2011 ending..2012 approaching.. after 3 months of tears, 3 months of anger, 3 monts of happiness, 3 months of smile,

despite the fact at times we wish the time could stop, despite something big happen in our life, our grandpa clock just keep on ticking..and well, after adding up those 3 months...here we are, 12 months of our life.. =)

life is so unpredictable.. *laugh*

oh and oh, the title "tangled" is because...i watch TANGLED which is basically RAPUNZEL this afternoon~ =D
it definitely ends with a fairy tale way - happily ever after...

bt does life really end happy ever after in everyone life?? for how many percent??
i certainly have no idea...and no idea how to count...

just a little innocent question : Will i ever had the fairy tale ending in my life if i hold a stronger faith in it???? a stronger belief and trust...

i dont know...till the day my life is ending~ =) for now, let's just celebrate the countdown of the brand new year 2012...
should i do a evaluation on my life in 2011??? yeah i should bt i am not going to tell u guys~ hahaha... =) and my resolution, as i said before, the one and only one... live a simple happy life~ =D

tata~~

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

two...

when two become one~~

people who listen to the 90s will remember this song..from SPICE GIRLS though~ =)
but oh well, not talking about the 90s music although i wonder where they gone... neither am i talking about SPICE GIRLS, once my top favourite girl group... =)



have anyone ever count the number of junction one had already encounter in 2 decades of life?? plenty isnt it...even in choosing our dear meal such as having western food today or just simply a bowl of fruits.. =) in this full of chaos, full of excitement, full of curiosity, full of disappointment, full of happiness life, it is also full of choices and the unwanted junction... =)

i bet everyone when reach this ever loved-yet-hated junction of life, where they about to take a big bend and there is no U-turn along this road, they eventually lowered their head, look thru the grasses and see as far as they could, till where the bend obstruct their vision... step a little forward, look again, still ntg could be seen... take a little step to the right, look again thru the grass, satisfied?? no?? then walk a little to the left, look again, happy??? no?? then jump up a little, wishing we could see what is awaiting in front...still nothing could be seen... alright, then i shall see what is waiting for me in another route.. did the same thing, comeback with the same disappointment..

one road seems like it had been wear off... one just had few prints, so few that u can actually count the footprint with the little cold finger of yours... should i be the safe one and continue with the road that had been used like a thousand times, or should i brave myself and explore the route that is used less than 10?? will i be stronger walking through the tall grass?? or i be safe walking on top of the small weeds that had been step a few times.. standing there still, thinking which road to be taken...

and this reminds me of the poem i read in school.... the road not taken by robert frost :

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


in our life, it is always with choices, we look, we consider, we even weight both the decision.. the grass that obstruct part of your view, it represent the obstruction in the decision we took...we weight that it look likes it weigh the same...could it be the same asked our little heart...the bend we look into, represent the change in our life...could the bend bent at the same degree??? would we be still the same person we are after the bent?? our little brain wonder... down the road, down the muddy road, will my wagon ever had a chance to turn and back to the same junction i had been to??? will when i finally return to the same junction, i am still the same person judging the 2 roads?? will the route ever look the same?? without the footprint of mine???

had you ever wonder what would it be when we took the right, what makes us be if we were in the left?? i dont know about others, neither can i be bother about it... but at least i do...i did wonder if i ever take a turn to the right, what would happen to me if i were at the left??? would the accident that bound to happen on the right could be prevented if i turn my car to the left?? is the journey to the right is shorter compare to the journey on the left?? when i met my friends on the right, will that mean i lose the chance to meet them when i am on the left??? what is there waiting at the left?? at what price did i pay when i take up my determination... =) i just wondered..

but hey, i just wonder...never did i ever take a u-turn and back to the junction where i pick up the right and left the left forever unknown....life is full of excitement, well again depend on how we look at it...the right has it own excitement... has it own world to be explored...has it own grass that stand tall~ i took my determination, my courage to pick the unwanted road...again, i wear off my courage to continue going down the bent.. i had no idea how much it has mould me into...can i say i am still the same person who made the choice?? am i stronger from all the tall grass?? am i better off with choices next time in my life???
till the time i reach another junction, then my mysterious answer would be answered...

you might ask, am i in the right pathway?? will the sun finally shine on the road..
i had no idea...could i ever judge the route if it is right or vice versa... could i jump up and point my finger on the road and scream, I AM SO WRONG ON PICKING YOU.. could i say IF ONLY I CHOOSE THE OTHER INSTEAD OF YOU!!
no..i cant.. all road has it good and bad...it is basically the same..
the difference is that, how we learn from it...from the tall grass, from the pebbles on the road, from the sand that caught your eye, from the hot ray of the sun, each and everything taught us how to handle our life..and eventually when we walk out from this road, sometimes down the timeline, we will be someone we taught ourselves, we will be able to proudly say I AM WHO I AM...

2012 is nearing...what is my new year resolution?? each and every year i make a hell long list of it...but for this year, i would only make one...that is to live a simple happy life~ =) wish me luck!! ^^

Friday, December 16, 2011

...





[Chorus]
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

[Verse]
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

[Chorus]

count on me

u can count on me like 1,2,3
i'll be there
and i know that i need it i can count on you like 4,3,2
and u'll be there..
that's what friends supposed to do oh yeah~


from Bruno Mars... =)


is it true that i can actually count on someone so out of thought, out of mind???
can i really throw temper, laugh loudly, present what i really feel to someone i call friend??
can i really trouble them and expect them not to be angry and no matter how many times they had to amend my mistake for me and yet quietly standing there for me again???

can i ???

i always thought that in this whole wide world, the only people i can be angry about, i can trouble about and i can really be who i am, expressed what i feel and confidently know that they are still here with me is none other than my own family member....they are the only people i know i can be who i am and nt being pretentious... because i know they are the people i can really count on~ and ps : this does not include someone i call boyfriend~ =D

dont ask me why this post..it just pass my brain..
face it, this world didnt revolve just around us...the world wont stop because of certain thing and certain person...
time heals someone, as well as remodel other... how long can we actually be the same person we used to be???
and how long since people stop condemn on others and look at themselves???

in this whole wide world, who will stop and look?? look on something that pass by... look on what they had just missed??? what that had just walk into their life...

everything and anything could be said...but could those everything and anything be done???

i dont know...and i wouldnt want to know~~