of keeping or of letting it go~

im back again in ermm...more than 12 hours less than 24 hours.. =)


another debate is on~ wee!! it's just a simple question to be started off... it's a debate of with no ending because at the end, it depends on what u think and i dont doubt any of your point...since i respect what decision you take like how i hope u will respect mine.. =)


its a debate open to all~ =)

the question is :

WILL YOU EVER ABORT IF YOU WERE SCREENED WITH A BABY OF CONGENITAL ABNORMALITY ??

a baby which require a life time attention and care?? will you choose to continue on with the task given by god or will you give up ??

i am a medical student...i have learn about this congenital abnormality..i have seen some of kids with this kind of illness...i asked myself, what if one day i was gifted by the god on this child, will i have the bravery and courage to take up the mission like the mother i had seen?? will i have the enough patient and love for the child with such condition...let me stress on my point, im not looking down on those child but i know how hard it is to raise such child and the confidence for myself, it is just so low that i know i will never handle such stress...

if you were to ask if i will let it go...my answer is : I WILL...




i read on some debate...the child is a gifts of god and it wasnt up to our rights to take away his chance of life...and well of course as his/her mother, i had no rights on taking away his/her rights to breath before he/she even had the chance to breath in...i could, i mean i could give up the life for the child... to care for the child, to love the child and to give everything and anything in this world to my baby~ i dont mind going tru anything and did just anything for him/her for they are the world to me~ a instinct of a mother..the love of a mother, one shouldnt doubt it .. (unless some weird jackass that doesnt deserved to be a parent...)

but then again, for how long will i care for the child, for how long can i care for the child?? for how long can i look after the child?? let's just if i had a life time of 80 years...and i had the baby at the age of 25, i could and i will care for him for 55 years..after that???? if *touchwood* i had to leave the world, who is there for him??? do i rely on others for a baby of my own??? will or should he follow me to the gate of hell???? who will be there caring for him??? and then again, can he care for himself?? i can have a lot a lot of money, but will he stand up for himself?? not that he will, can he??? can he stood up for himself, guard himself against all danger waiting outside?? once i close my eyes, can someone make sure that my baby is safe till the day god brings him with HIM?

can i rely on others to care for my baby?? it's just reality~ i know it hurts~ but again, it's reality... u can take care for him..u are the world to him..but if one day, you left, what will happen to the baby???will the world crash down on him??? im scared, so scared to imagine what will happen then...

apart from this, the suffer is not only on us...i dont mind having all the hurts including his...but this can never happen...
the parents are not the only one suffer...can he smile genuinely?? can he be happy for who he is???

let's face it...the society, no matter how much one group try to change, the view of society is so strong it could never change... those stereotypical thinking and look will never just disappear... the reality that sooner or later he has to face, the tease and laughter...can he really be happy?? even with the warmest hug from me, will he ever feel he belongs to the world?? being different from normal, those feeling is hard to for one to understand..can he be strong enough to face the world???

i dont know and i never had the courage to know..if my baby had the strong will, a strong personality to face the future awaiting for him...
i being a small human in this big world had no strength and courage to take up the big noble mission from the god...

i rather be called cruel murderer then be...giving birth to a baby who i know will have a rough life in front of him~ giving birth to a baby who i know wouldnt really happy for his life...and probably blaming me for what he had to face later on in his life~

i rather him to be happy somewhere else~~

so... how about you??


p/s : anyway, in MALAYSIA it is illegal to abort a child unless the child is dead in-utero (under natural causes) and also it posses threat to maternal life...apart from this 2 reason, it is illegal to abort a child~