world within

do you guys believe that in every person mind, there is always a hidden world, a world that hardly had the chance to surface, the reality, the truth that everyone wish to keep it hidden forever...bringing it to the grave

far from civilization....far from humanity~ some choose to forget about it..some didnt even know the hidden world of themselves..what i meant by the latter??

i believe i am the latter one...never knew or probably i do, just that i never realized that i had it~~ i do..i seriously do think about it... what kind of person i am?? am i someone worth to be called friends by some other... why on earth do i had such a thinking...funny me~ xD

yeah, i can even type the smiley emoticon.. crazy much~ =)

am i a friend to a friend..or i am just a bypasser?? the people who walk pass other life..a person who never leave any footprint in one life...probably i am just a bypasser to many people i claim to be friend....

maybe it is me...well, if one person are acting that way, it could be the problem of that person, bt then my high school friends?? all of them??? it should be mine...i type could just now, bt yeah, it should be the word SHOULD~ =) afterall, it's not 1 but 4..

at times me looking at how they could joke and hang out together, i admit, i do butthurt.. initially i really angry about it...what is that?? did you guys just went out without inviting me??? what is this all about?? and u guys wrote gathering...without me~~ and i though 5 of us really close in high school... i question myself day by day...and slowly, the unattended question slowly turn into a mystery~ the anger i had were slowly off~~ and slowly i put the blame on myself..

well, like i said, if 4 of them are having the same thought, i would be the problematic one...even if they thought i wasnt part of their world, i belongs to a world far from them...

i really wanna know what kind of person i am...i really wish someone sincerely told me...am i a friend worth to be call a friend....i hate the fact that all my friends are just merely a friend...honestly, lately one of a friend i care had just...idk..went missing??? where are the 3 people i always talk to?? 4 of us who chat happily all the time...it just vanish~~

my dad once say, in your life, u will go into different space, different step, and in this every step u met different kind of people and eventually the people u met in the previous space, it will remain in ur memory...even if they were out of your sight, they remain in your memories as people u had met before, people u share memories with...

but

is it real that a friendship couldnt go thru the different space, different step together?? even if it meant less face to face talk, less conversation,friend never meant to be let off~~that is at least what im thinking of~~

maybe to the last day of me in the earth, i shall ask the grim reaper..do tell me, which tears in funeral day, is the true genuine tears...tears without color, not the black tears neither the red tears...if tears represent the true feeling of one,

what is the color of tears that is rolling down my face now...will i able to receive the true tears?? or i will never receive one~

i just dont get it~

i just dont get it get it~ we just dont get it get it~ T.T

yeah, i dont get it~ i dont get lots of stuff...probably is just my brain wasnt functioning well recently..or mainly because im stupid..oh yea, did i ever mention i went to Langkawi on Monday?? okay, i dont..well well, it's kinda rush and tired bt nonetheless, it is fun~

hanging out with friends is always fun although at the end of the day, u still dont know how the hell we pass those time... =D although i went Langkawi before bt yeah, going up the 700m cable car is definitely the first time~ =D i cant even remember the route to the ferry...i was on plane all the time.. =D what to do, my mum n my sister had ship sickness~ =D

700m above sea level, i must be crazy to go up there...probably nt crazy for normal people bt for me, who had height phobia, i almost faint!!! okay, i didnt bt still...those palpitation spell..i dont want to feel it again~

apart from that, other stuff, i had well, seen it before~ =D ntg much though....there is quite a number of stuff my friend didnt actually went...bt then, it's still an experience...well, it just 2 days..what can we do for the 2days~ =D maybe next time~ =)

bt the next time, i wanna go BALI~ maybe! ^^ or KOREA...whatever~ i will write something bout langkawi..if i had the mood...for now~

yeah!! i just dont get it get it... KIM HYUNJOONG, leader of ss501, had make their solo debut with Break Down.. =) bt instead of break down, i shall post on Please aka JEBAL~ =D i like that song though~ =)





LYRICS :

Hey Yeah
술에 취해서 I cried
너의 집 앞에서 너를 기다려
불이 꺼진 집으로 들어가는
그와 너를 보고 숨이 막혔어
눈을 맞추고 입을 맞추고
그를 안고 잠이 들
네가 너무 미워서
입술 깨물고 눈물 삼키고
정신 나간 사람처럼 서 있어

난 오직 너라고
영원히 너라고
터져버린 눈물에 주저앉아 불러
널 불러

I just don't get it, get it,
Why don't you get it, get it,
제발 너 그 사람 보며 웃지 마
제발 너 그 사람 입 맞추지 마
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

눈을 감으면 Baby
아직도 네가 곁에 있는 것 같아
네 숨결이 네 사랑이 내 안에서
도망가지 못하게 붙잡고 있을래
비가 내려서 모두 씻겨서 이별한
그 기억들을 사라지게 하고 싶어
어둠 속으로 더 먼 곳으로
내 아픈 눈물들을 데려가 줘

난 오직 너라고
영원히 너라고
터져버린 눈물에
주저앉아 불러
널 불러

I just don't get it, get it,
Why don't you get it, get it,
제발 너 그 사람 보며 웃지 마
제발 너 그 사람 입 맞추지 마
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

퍼지는 담배 연기 사이로
너를 흩어지게 해도
하얗게 네가 더욱 깊게 새겨져
너를 못 잊어

Oh Girl

다시 내게로 와
미칠 듯 소리쳐 너만을 사랑해
너를 보낸 잘못에
후회하며 빌어
난 빌어

I just don't get it, get it,
Why can't you get it, get it,
제발 너 그 사람 품에 안지 마
제발 너 그 사람 사랑하지 마
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

Oh Baby, I need you
You took my love
and killed it girl
You took my love
You took my love
and killed it girl
You took my love
and killed it girl
이러지마
You took my love
and killed it girl
Why my heart cries
Oh Girl, (It's) like you killed me
You took my love
and killed it girl
Baby you killed it

제발 날 떠나가지 마

Hey Yeah
Sule chwihaeseo I cried
Neoui jib apeseo neoreul gidaryeo
Buli ggeojin jibeuro deuleokaneun
Geuwa neoreul bogo sumi makhyeosseo
Nuneul matchugo ipeul matchugo
Geureul ango jamideul
Nega neomu miweoseo
Ipsul ggaemulgo nunmul samkigo
Jangshin nagan saramcheoreom seo isseo

Nan ojik neorago
Yeongweonhi neorago
Teojyeobeorin nunmure jujeoanja bulreo
Neol bulreo

I just don't get it, get it,
Why don't you get it, get it,
Jebal neo geu saram bomyeo utjima
Jebal neo geu saram ip matchujima
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

nuneul kameumyeon Baby
ajikdo nega gyeote ittneun geot gata
ne sumkyeori ne sarangi nae aneseo
domangjaji mothage butjabgo isseulrae
biga naeryeoseo modu ssitgyeoseo ibyeolhan
geu giokdeureul sarajige hago shipeo
eodum sokeuro deo meon goseuro
nae apeun nunmuldeureul deryeoga jweo

Nan ojik neorago
Yeongweonhi neorago
Teojyeobeorin nunmure
jujeoanja bulreo
Neol bulreo

I just don't get it, get it,
Why don't you get it, get it,
Jebal neo geu saram bomyeo utjima
Jebal neo geu saram ip matchujima
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

peojineun dambae yeongin sairo
neoreul heuteojige haedo
hayahge nega deo-uk gipge saegyeojyeo
neoreul mot ijeo

Oh Girl

Dashi naegero wa
Michil deut sorichyeo neomaneul saranghae
Neoreul bonaen jalmote
Huhwihamyeo bireo
Nan bireo

I just don't get it, get it,
Why can't you get it, get it,
Jebal neo geu saram pume anjima
Jebal neo geu saram saranghajima
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

Oh Baby, I need you
You took my love
and killed it girl
You took my love
You took my love
and killed it girl
You took my love
and killed it girl
ireojima
You took my love
and killed it girl
Why my heart cries
Oh Girl, (It's) like you killed me
You took my love
and killed it girl
Baby you killed it

Jebal nal ddeonakajima

Hey Yeah
I was intoxicated so I cried
I waited for you in front of your house
With the light off, I entered the house
I saw you and him and I choked on my breath
Eyes were fixed and you kissed
You embraced him and fell asleep

I really hate you
I bite my lips and swallow my tears
I stood there like a crazy person

To me, it’s still only you
Forever, it’s you
With bursting tears as I collapse, I call out,
I call out for you

I just don't get it, get it,
Why don't you get it, get it,
Please, if you look at him, don’t smile
Please don’t kiss him
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

When I close my eyes, Baby
I think I’m still at your side
Your breath, your love are inside me
I tightly hold you so you can’t escape
Because it rains, the separation is all washed away
I want those memories to disappear
Into the darkness, into a further place,
Take away my painful tears

To me, it’s still only you
Forever, it’s you
With bursting tears,
As I collapse, I call out,
I call out for you

I just don't get it, get it,
Why don't you get it, get it,
Please, if you look at him, don’t smile
Please don’t kiss him
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer


Between the spreading tobacco smoke
You disperse
You become more deeply etched in white
I can’t forget you

Oh Girl

Come back to me
Shouting like crazy, I love only you
It was wrong to let go of you
Regretfully, I beg
I beg

I just don't get it, get it,
Why can't you get it, get it,
Please, don’t embrace in his arms
Please don’t love him
Cuz you're the cheater, a liar,
and a killer

Oh Baby, I need you
You took my love
and killed it girl
You took my love
You took my love
and killed it girl
You took my love
and killed it girl

Don’t do it this way
You took my love
and killed it girl
Why my heart cries
Oh Girl, (It's) like you killed me
You took my love
and killed it girl
Baby you killed it

Please don’t leave me

credit : http://ssangcho.blogspot.com/2011/05/lyrics-romanization-translation-kim.html

=D

enjoy

rewrite~

write then delete...then write and delete again...and it goes round and round~
a whole list of drafts...the unspoken feeling, the darkness of truth...shall remind silent forever in the folder that could never surface~~ =)



"right now im writing a story in happy thoughts, but it's all just a wish...still..."
credit : Junhyung in Fiction MV

the brand new world

welcoming the new me~ =D

wish me best of luck~ =)