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been so long since i last write a word here..well, i dont have anything in mind to spill...

now posting this show i had something to say...well, i was on my way back (when i find my way back to your arm again..but untill that day, u know u are the QUEEN OF MY HEART..), suddenly -- ask me bout wan teng...well, is a topic about friendship..

bout how i realised, -- is someone like me...i always thought i am so emotional (^^ say this) that i could cry over someone who is angry and dont want to talk to me..but well, thean sim is the same...in the end, it seems like both of us couldnt take it if someone who is so close to us, could suddenly ignore us...

simple reason for this...we couldnt stand the fact someone ignore us and well, could it be our mistake?? our fault for all this ignorance..for all this sudden change??? i dont deny the fact that i always blurt out something subconsciously that hurt someone..i hated that side of me too...but well, if u guys are to about leave this stupid friend (i mean myself) could u guys at least tell me what happen?? so that at least i know i did something bad and it is unforgiven???

in friends, i try to be nice..but at times, i feel like ppl think im doing it for the sake of doing to a point it look so fake!! when i try to be bad, it makes me look so bad that i become the jerk!! sometimes it is so tiring...what should i do??? is like...

we try to make something stupid out of ourself when u guys are sad..and it makes us sound like stupid when there is ntg from u...the fact that getting ignored and doesnt know what the hell did i did wrong it is soo....hell~ seriously~

but im happy that at least someone in this world understand how i feel...i been feeling emo last night...not really much but then...when i say something, i dont really mean it...i know that stupid mouth of mine...mulut celupar bukan...i try to be queit and yet u guys tot im sad or angry or bad mood...what should i do???

i try not to show my bad point to u guys..i try my best to stay cheer..i remember isaiah say my name jolyn goes well with jolly..i just smile...park yong ha death really open my eyes...how much a person can stand hurt and sadness...

someone say that if i had something i can just tell him/her...but if my happy stuff u are nt interested..how much would u listen for my sad story?????

in friendship, i just wanna be happy..like -- say, she just want to be happy..why there is so much things in a frienship..shouldnt this relationship should stay simple instead of complicated..a friend where we divide the pain to lesser amount and multiply the happiness to infinity??? is so tiring to make the clown out of myself and yet what i got from everything i give is....this~

ONE BETTER DAY ~

Yeah Listen to this
Even though darkness wraps around me
Even though I can't see one inch before me because it's so dark
The hurt heart heart heart of hers that got wounded
I will wrap around I promise I'm gonna be down

Her that is getting tired of the repeated times
If you have no place to lean then come and lean on me
For you we will be together call us
Start again right now

Now again one better day~ one better day~
A bright tomorrow is waiting for you
Now again one better day~ one better day~
I'm here I will go together with you
I'm going in

Thoughts that you're by yourself The worlds that have no answer
the days tic tok like the hands of a clock
All the hard times just cut them up
This light has waited for you

Her that is getting tired of the repeated times
If you have no place to lean then come and lean on me
For me I came here call us
And again start right now

Now again one better day~ one better day~
A bright tomorrow is waiting for you
Now again one better day~ one better day~
I'm here I will go together with you

My heart is running
Whenever with me
Now let's start baby yeah it is

Now again one better day~ one better day~
A bright tomorrow is waiting for you
Now again one better day~ one better day~
I'm here I will go together with you