Y.Y

idk...is just...

i feel like...not talking to anyone...although i been the usual me, as soon as i reach home, it feels like the world are back to gloomy state...

idk...it seems like me and my friend (not all..but certain) are slowly drifting apart..or maybe is just me..not stating name..is just its not something like it used to..

maybe is just me...and so, before everything went back normal, is best, not to online..
better not to ruin someone's mood...for at least, hurting someone..

-emo-

argh!!

i dont know...of all things that is passing through my life, there seems like nobody to complain to...and nobody care to know...

with everything adding up...and for my ability in which i doubt it could last long, i so going to end everything...

my blog is only place i could ever turn myself in...
a place i could cry on...geniunely cry..and nobody scold me pabo...
a place i spill everything and it never act like none-of-my-bussiness...
a place...a place where it held..pretty much of my every thinking..


the reason i turn here to private..so that i could be the only soul to read this place..
the only person to know that...this girl...



is no longer the girl who listen..the girl who smile geniunely...the girl who care...


just a girl..who live in dark world...a girl who pretty much disappointed in this world...
a girl...who is going to live in her own world..and fake herself in this reality world..

as the time bomb going...
tic toc tic toc..



















till the day it explode..and this place, turn into the memorial place of hers...the memory of her life~ her once happiness..her once sadness..her journey...her colors~

TT.TT

boring~~
depressed~
down~



dying~ TT.TT

a lesson to be learn

learned something very important today...someone slap me and wake me up from a stupid dream..something that i always believe..something i always practice, it seems so wrong now...im fully awake for what i been through...

what is friend...what is foe...someone u call friend do they really care of who you are...or do they really know who you are...after naively believe that treat people like how they wanted to treat you and had been practising that for 2 decades of my life, it seems like the saying is getting far from what it meant...

i watch happy together yesterday, heard NARSHA afraid human the most..i kinda agree with it...to be treated like how u wanted to be treat...if human is a species of so simple, they werent human afterall...

actually afterall the not-so-organised talk for intro (i even failed in putting an organised intro),i realised that after for such a long time, there is ntg such as sincere friends....to talk to someone when im in sad position and to get the respond back, is nt something easy...maybe to remember everything in CNS is even easier than to get someone who listen well...

they open up when they had problem..u listen to them...give them what u think..they feel better and there they goes...MIA...when u talk on something, there is no response..after all the cold asses i been received so far, i learned to keep my own problem..to rely on someone to solve what is been miserable to you, isnt it better to keep it with urself and solve it...

when im happy for jae new jdrama, proud of yun new achievement, awaiting for min new kdrama, worried on chun absent and congrats on su achievement...it seems like there is noone to talk to...even if this superficial feelings werent able to reach to my friends, what more on the deep feeling...of superficial and deep, it is same to me...

i told you about the new group...u kick it aside as something boring..why u expect me to spazz with you the same thing again when u found out??? after my heated spazz were turn down by your cold ass, why i going to heat up my warm heart to keep it up for you..im sorry but i think im going to change..maybe next i will go "oh reall?" okay...

i know this post is going to be blank till i had something up next..and it will still left cold...even when i say im going to stop mbbs...

for all the cold ass, and after all the tears that evaporate from my cheek..i learn..i learn to change myself...change to what the norm had been....

for jungmo~

is kim jungmo from TRAX!!! :D :D
really love this group...too bad they were under spotlight...
but for jungmo, I LOVEEEEE YOUUUUUUU~~ :D

listen to their latest single~ : 가슴이 차가운 남자 (Let You Go)

tracklist :
01 가슴이 차가운 남자 (Let You Go)
02 One Night
03 송인 (Goodbye Lover)
04 아직은...나 (I Can Change)
05 치유 (Healing) (feat. Key From SHINee)
06 끝나지 않은 이야기 (Don't Leave Me)