到此為止

我們

不能知道每個人的所有事
我也不會知道她的事 也不會故意探究追問
但我看到的 卻是一個天真女孩
不懂太多人情世故 只懂全情投入去愛
但最後 卻換來遍體鱗傷

旁人 也不能跟她說甚麼打氣說話
畢竟人 是須要獨去成長
旁人的說話 只是輔助 有時甚至乎是贈慶

.........................

成長
是需要勇氣
也得忘記過去..

首先是要把眼淚收起
洗個臉
跟自己和他說一聲


"好了 就這樣吧 到此為止" ...


我真的能吗？？？我可以吗？？？

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好好分開應要淡忘　你找到你伴侶
重臨舊情境　我卻哭得出眼淚
時常在聯想　你會溫馨的抱她午睡
然而自己現在沒任何權利　再抱怨一句

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次
為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事
還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智
今天你能忘記　只得我懷念多麼諷刺

輾轉反側將愛活埋　要把你印象減退
重提舊人物　我卻開心得帶恐懼
年月是流水　我也相識一個成長伴侶
殘酷或許是對象面形容貌　也似你少許

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次
為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事
還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智
今天你能忘記　只得我懷念多麼諷刺

如何逃避這戀愛故事　仍然說得多細緻
重覆的震撼　餘震未停止

我再沒勇氣向你講舊時　沒有勇氣相愛另一次
為你將睡眠忘記　通宵傾談但已經頓成往事
還是記起　無道理的對罵是年紀小的不智
今天再回頭看　這一個男孩子

我怕面對你說到生活時　後悔過往的幼稚爭議
沒你的動人時節　喧譁歡騰亦已經並無意義
閒話到此　遺憾到此結論是回憶總要到此
雖則你難忘記　這戀愛遺物終需棄置

再好好過日子





。。。。。。

GEUMANHAE!!

D DD DD DD D
D DD DD DD D
Stop it, stop it, please

Talk that talk that talk that
Talk that talk that talk that

How could you do this?
I am hurting so much like this
Do you even think of me?
Am I easy to you?

Yes, I’ll listen, although it’ll be all lies
Yes, I’ll smile, just like all the girls you played with

* (Talk that) Keep saying those ridiculous words
(Talk that) But don’t think that I’ll believe you
(Talk that) Because everything you say is a lie
(Talk that) Tell me the truth
(Talk that) Stop playing with me
(Talk that) Everything you tell me seems like a lie

Talk that talk that talk that
Talk that talk that talk that

From the start, it was all lies
Don’t tell me that you were telling the truth
Now it’s hard for me to believe you
Am I that easy to you?

Yes, I’ll listen, although I already know your excuses
Yes, I’ll smile, now please go away, I won’t care anymore

* Repeat

You tell me again but I don’t wanna listen, just stop it all
Don’t say my name
Don’t say my name
Don’t say my name

Talk that talk that talk that
Talk that talk that talk that please

* Repeat

Talk that talk that talk that
Talk that talk that talk that

English translated: pop!gasa



am i being so easy to you????

why?

i promise myself to treat myself better.. to forget you, to not thinking bout u and to try to accept other people into my life...
and like u requested, i starts to avoid you...

i did... i mix with others, i accept other people,
and i started to accept another guy...

but why i could not find the same feeling i had with you?
why memories come back is only bout me and you?

u asked me to help u to prepare food.. i knew im sick, i knew i could have say no, i knew i should have to reject u saying im sick...
but why at that time without thinking despite the cough and blank mind,i immediately agreed to?? and why even that, i could be so happy????

at top of all, why after all, i still miss you???

did i really love u that deep???
is it so hard to forget someone who shared so much of memories???
how long still will it takes???


im still curious..
did u share the same feeling like i do????

mind game

mind game...
is it so fun?? isnt it tiring.. guessing each and every thing a person trying to do/ say...
even guessing what one going to say... why breaking such an excitement??

are u indicating "wait for you" by elliot yamin ..


or

separate lives by phil collins


i dont know.. i have no idea what is happening around me..
it is so confusing... i am so confused...

should i really confront u... and tell u what i really feel???


should i hold on still....
or
should i just let off??

i admit... i still miss you~ i really do!!!

anyeong sarang anyeong

from the start i took up the courage to love you....

then i took in my stubborn in holding on to the love i never see a future...
i become coward in not letting it off...

today i took back my courage and decide to let it off...

i am proud of myself... ^^

.............

so this is how i will feel??
so this is how one felt when they had a taste of freedom???

no wonder i always find a a big place with no ends calming.. like the wide blue sea and a green big field... it is always so calming just by looking to it...
probably it is just part of me, part of me who restricts myself...
a part of me who cries for freedom...

by looking to the wide place, where there is unlimited freedom,something i always want, something i always scared to have it...

thanks for giving me a taste of freedom.. so this is how it feels like...
i shall never forget how it feels like... :D

to forget

how many of us could actually forget someone easily?? especially that person had so many memories and so much things to remind us about his presence...

how could i forgive u who gave me so much to be remembered in a first place...
how could i give up when my heart wouldnt even want to give up..

i had logically told myself enough is enough..after everything, wouldnt dignity could have save me from hell??? how could i fell even deeper into those loop hole???

after what had happen, after all those tears, why would i still not wake up from what could happen... isnt it obvious that this again an one-sided love... why would i be so stupid to be in such situation...

....... now i would tell why.....

how could i forget someone who shares so much memories.. every corner of my life for the last 2 years had filled with a memory between us...

how could i forget him when he has appeared again and again in front of me.. who had faced me everyday...

how could i forget him when every time i tried not to be with him, he had comeback to gain attention.. either a lame joke, a funny expression or a weird question...

how could i forget him when even my facebook chat list had his name on, either online or offline.. his name is always there for god-know-what-reason.. he is not listed as my close friend, i didnt message him so much.. others would disappear when they offline.. some never been into that column.. how could his name forever be at there.. i never pin his name there.. even facebook bullied me~ :(

how could i forget him....

i hate how i had look at things that happen.. i hate myself for finding reason to forgive him each and every time.. how could i blame myself for everything that had happen... if a guy loves u so much, would he actually walk away and come like that... someone say it is hard to understand a women's heart... it is also hard to know men's sincerity... am i not being obvious that i had fall for him?? or that i am being inobvious that he is trying not to fall for me in order to protect himself...

or am i being obvious that i fall for him.. and he did that so that i dont fall for him anymore??

either of it...i guess the latter had more probability than the former... but one thing for sure, as long as he is still in my mind, how could i ever receive another guy in my life... till when, such a life would end??? it is killing me slowly from within... it is easy for people to say give up.. how could i, when my life is still full of him... it is easy to say stop, give up!! enough is enough.. bt how could u forget someone who had give so much in your life... now i understand why sometimes, even in hell, some wife still stay with their husband and children when they could afford to walk away~

Biased

i had so much to say but each and everytime i get to say it, or even to type it here

i become tongue-tight..


in this friendship, can i still hold on??
should i still hold on???

should i still find myself a reason to stay???
a reason for myself to call a friend a friend????

does this heartache mean i still care for this friendship????

i am confused...if being in as friend hurts me so much, why is it still called friend??
if within friends, grouping happen, isolation happen.. is this still call friends??

being outcast twice in a relationship, why cant i still learn to heal my own heartache???


......

conclusion : i am dumb!

夜夜夜夜

the lyrics...

you dont even try to explain everything to me... you dont even try to force yourself to lie a single word...

i should have wake up... i should have seen the difference..
i should have stop myself from the unrealistic dream... who am i making myself into...

sorry to myself.. wait, i dont even deserved that sorry from myself..


who am i now?? i wonder...
somewhere along someone conversation... that line, makes me wonder...
i am.... what had been said~ i am...

a dumb